Today was nice And bad. Don't ask. >_<;;;

4 periods free.. w00t! That's like, 2hours 20min free.. I regret not bringing my mobile to school. ;___; T__T

Well, so what exactly did I do during those free periods? I spent the first 2 free periods trying to bond with some of my classmates. I don't know if it worked, but we sure did have fun. XD For the second 2 free periods, I helped to clean up the classroom, and then later talked to Jessica regarding our studies and our families etc. Well hers seem decent enough. ._." As compared to mine. She says that it's because of her condition, but I really doubt so. There's such a HUGE difference.. They go to the beach and play when they were still small, they have family bonding time etc..... I've had NONE of those before. Seriously. Even if I did, it's so rare and unspecial that I don't even remember them. It's pretty sad, eh? And I've also learnt that I shouldn't share anything about my family in real life, I'll start crying ._. *Yes yes I almost did, happy? >_>*

Chance injured his toe.. Ouch!! The bed bang and went inside his toenail, cutting it.. And it was oozing blood all the while.. owwwww. >__<;;; I feel his pain when I'm not even injured. Imagine the torment he has to go through! Argh. The horror. @_@;;

I just realized that Wei Li not only shares the same interests as me [anime], but she also is in the same board, etc! XD So cute. =3

I don't know why, but I'm pretty moody today. As in like, pretty depressed? I don't know... I'm getting weirder and weirder by the second. Anyone willing to drag me back to the same me that I was aeons ago?

PS: PE Tomorrow and it's raining. Field. *thinks* .... Omg. I think I'll take an MC. X_X

I leave you with the translation of Tsubasa's You Are My Love. It's some nice song. Listen to it if you can, ne? XD

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Anime: Tsubasa Chronicle
Song: You Are My Love

Kiss me sweet
I'm sleeping in silence
all alone
in ice and snow

In my dream
I'm calling your name
you are my love..

In your eyes
I search for my memory
lost in vain
so far in the scenery
hold me tight,
and swear again and again
We'll never be apart

If you could touch my feathers softly
I'll give you my love
We set sail in the darkness of the night
out to the sea
to find me there
to find you there
Love me now
if you dare...

Kiss me sweet
I'm sleeping in sorrow
all alone
to see you tomorrow

In my dream
I'm calling your name
You are my love...
My love...

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~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

Today was our missionary seminar.. Quite a memorable one, I must admit. The lessons learnt.. Are quite a value? Yes, I guess I can say so.

It was fun - I really enjoyed myself. For once, I laughed so much, and enjoyed myself so much.. Despite being alone. As usual. Well, it was pretty fun..

The most excruiating thing was the part where we were supposed to pen down what we are happy and what we aren't about our parents. "What I'm grateful for.." ..... I was sitting there, staring blankly at the paper. What exactly is it that I'm grateful for? With the lack of ideas, I put in "shelter and food, together with clothings".

"What my expectations are.." I sat there, looking at the paper. And then I just broke down and cried. This was.. excruxiating pain. Memories came flooding back - being accused of things I never did, being insulted, being hit, having the need to live with someone who believes that all there is to life is studying.. It was overbearing. It back so much sorrow.. Anger.. pain. Was this all there is to my life? I certainly hope not, but the light that was always there has already started to dim. I wanted to ask of them for so much more..

Understanding me, believing me, having trust in me.. Is it that much to ask? I don't know, but I certainly don't think so in my point of view. Of course, it may be biased, but still...

The part where we share about our friendship, our life in Hai Sing.. It was awesome. I actually had tears in my eyes. Still, it made me realize.. What little happy memories I have, and how much sorrow I have endured. Yes, I have grown.. But, who will be willing to share my sorrow, listen to my porblems? Who will always be by my side, lending me a shoulder to cry on when there's a need to? I want an answer.. Who can do me that favour?

I wrote to some.. Like Yunn Yue, Zi Qi [intend to write to Marcus also =) ]. But out of 6 classes, only 1 gave me.. Thanks Yunn Yue! Your letter made my day. =]

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The English Oral was quite ok, aside from the questions that bombed me. X_X I have to see her again. NOOOO!!! T___T

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Why do we fight so hard to protect others, and how do people get so much power from friendship? It's something I"m still wondering.. It's something I'm still yet to experience. I seriously hope that I will be able to.. I don't want to be all alone all my life.

I leave you with a verse I came up.

Don't be afraid
To show me your tears
You are not all alone
Please don't lose sight of that

Give me your sorrow
And give me your tears
I will comfort you
Until you're okay again

Wonder who will say that to me...