An important thing... 「」 A memory.

2008-05-10T20:42:00.000-07:00

Wow... It's been like.. AEONS since I last updated eh? XD Well, I've been busy with school. Submission week is coming up! =( All my moneh's going to fly away. T_T =emos=

So anyway, CCN day is this Friday, do come and support us if you're free! Some of the Year 2 ADMers are setting up shops at the Design Entrance on Monday and Tuesday as part of our projects, do come support us if you can/want! XD I'll be taking that subject next block, so GIVE MEH YOUR SUPPORT!! =3

Okay, I shall go back and do my projects. XD;

2007-06-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

2nd and 3rd June were the 2 days for Streetfest 2007. Nothing much happened, last year's was actually more eventful. I saw the fuckface whom I totally hate, but being the civilised person I am, I didn't do anything to HIM. ^_^ Managed to catch up with friends whom I've not talked to for agesssssssss. Haha.

Speaking with them makes me realize something: So much can change within a year. Wow.

Anyway, some pictures of me to enjoy. ;)

^ Credits to Usagi for taking this pic.

2007-04-24T23:21:00.000-07:00

Haha. Yes I know it's been ages since I last updated this blog. Do take note, though, that I'll be updating my LJ blog more often, though I don't think I update that a lot too haha. Haiz. Wow, when was the last post? XD;

Anyone up for cutting/dyeing hair? Haha. Cause I think I want to go for it again sometime soon.. See how haha. Met up with my TDS people.. I love them all! Such wonderful people. =]

Currently I'm on a shopping spree haha. I'm spending moneh like no one's business! T_T But oh well, I am glad that my parents let me work for another 4 more days. 8D

2006-09-18T19:59:00.000-07:00

Went to Waseda open house last Sunday. It was fun. 8D Elmo alighted at the wrong stop, *#&(**!(#*%^%. Helena and Ellax [SK] saw us at the bus stop and almost alighted haha. Luckily I told them that it wasn't the stop. =X Ellax still can remember me lehhh. Whoa. D8

The Waseda was ok haha. I met lots of friends there. 8D Kelton couldn't recognise me. T_T If he say he didn't see me at least better reason haha [since he's tallllllllll and I'm short XDDDD]. Then went to see Danny play in the basketball tournament. They won, yay! 8D

Then go walk walk. Very crowded arh~! Elmo had to walk sideways!! XDDD He say he can become shinobi liao. Haha, I think is more like he occupy more space. XP

After that went Jurong East to have lunch/dinner. Or lunner/dunch, as Steve calls it haha. Went to eat KFC and talk cock arh! Haha, laughed until stomach pain sia. Then Ziru and Elmo had to leave. Then later on at 6, Ozzy and this girl went to watch a movie, so Steve, Selphie and I went to walk around before heading to the arcade. Wanted to DDR but I sick, best not to. Perccussion freaks was being hogged by this girl, so I gave up trying lol.

Overall, a very fun day. 8D

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-09-18T19:52:00.000-07:00

Hur hur. Prelims about halfway done, the papers demoralizes me. =/ Haha ok lar actually is not that hard, but is more of because I didn't really study cause I sick lol. =X

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I went to Waseda open house. There wasn't much, but it was hard to move around cause it was crowded. Elmo had to walk sideways LOL. Then he say what he can become shinobi liao. D8 Uncleeee, is because you fat larrrr, occupy more space. =P Haha.

Then watched Danny play in the basketball tournament. They won! Yayness. 8D Also met some of my friends there. ^^ Whoa Ellax still remembers me. D8 Haha. I saw Kelton! XD But he didn't recognise me. ;-; Until I poked him haha. ._.;

After that we went to Jurong East to have lunch/dinner/lunner/dunch. Haha. Last 2 were suggested by Steve. 8D

We talked cock. OMG it was sooooooo funny haha. I laughed until I had stomach pain. ;_; After that Ziru and Elmo had to go since Elmo had to book in haha. XP The rest of us stayed. Ozzy and this other girl went to watch a movie later at 6, so Steve, Selphie and I went to walk around haha, since it was raining. Went to the arcade. 8D I wanted to DDR but I sick, so best not to. T_T I wanted to try Drum Mania [percussion freaks] too, but then this girl was hogging the machine. =/ Oh well, haha. It was still a nice day. 8D

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
Btw thanks Scha for helping me with POA. ^^

2006-09-18T19:44:00.000-07:00

You Are A: Duckling!

The cutest of the cute, these baby ducks are often spotted in the spring following closely behind their mother. As a duckling you will grow up quickly, becoming one of the adult ducks seen commonly in ponds and streams. Playful and timid, charming and vulnerable, ducklings are nature's very definition of innocence.

You were almost a: Kitten or a Bear Cub
You are least like a: Mouse or a Bunny What Cute Animal Are You?

2006-09-10T06:56:00.000-07:00

Haiz. Hopefully this post can work. Sorry arh, blogspot refused to let me post. =/

Lots of stuff happened. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER!! Reluctant happy birthday to someone. -__-

Minna-san, ganbatte for prelims ok? 8D I didn't have time to study, only 2 days. T_T Hopefully I can pass everything, I"ll be contented. ^^ I was down with high fever, 40 degrees, I spent A LOT of time sleepin, and half the time I was dizzy. =/ Hopefully all goes well. >_<;;

Minna, GANBATTE! 8D

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-24T22:10:00.000-07:00

Haiz. It happened again. The same dream, that I dreamt.... EXACTLY the same as the ones I've had over and over again. T_T Why does it keep repeating? And this time it was more freaky, much more detailed, and lasted much longer. Whyyyy? D8 It was the beach dream btw.

Once again, the the sea level rose again. And once again me and my friends were fleeing from it. Once again I was pulled into the water. And once again someone would jump and save me. And up up up we'll run again. And then, like before, I'll drop inside again. And yet another one would jump in to save me. And then nearing the top, once again the water will rise and stop right before us, then go back down. And there will be a new comer who comes in, and ask us to stand behind a tree and hold it tight. But this time was different, this time it was in between two trees. D8 But like before, the water rose up again, and we didn't get washed away. D8 When the waves receeded. Then, like the many times I've dreamt of it before, the water stops where it is and we were saved. Then as usual, I'd wake up at that point of time.

What exactly is the meaning of that dream? D8 I wonder.

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Well I had another dream after I went back to sleep. XD;

It was a weird one. I dreamt that we were at this. Erm. Place. Where there were a lot of people, and me, my friends and some of my cousins were there. We were supposed to take up only one lane [which has 2 rooms], but somehow it become two. Because the group of people taking the other lane somehow mysteriously disappeared. But no one else realized it, or seem to care. And then somehow cousin Shanice was supposed to come over but never did. o_o

And then I was walked out of the area, and it was like erm. FF-kinda like. Lots of stuff, and really beautiful. Like a really beautiful park/garden. And then I saw this house. I entered and saw a really dark lane. And saw something really stupid happen. XD And then I continued walking.. And saw this person up on the tree looking quite demented. Then so I walked on.. And somehow I saw Jessica, and then this old man, I pressume her grandfather, really bringing her down by words. And then I saw her bro, looking down at her....

I walked out of the house, and realized that I actually had walked through a lot of the garden, a whole course. And I somehow decided to go to this other place to find out something, forgot what.... Then I woke up.

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And yet again I went back to bed. D8

This time I dreamt that me and my friends were on this mission. First we would be on a boat, and something really important will be floating about at this certain part of the river. We had to jump in and take it before going back on the boat. That's job no. 1. So we were practicing. And it wasn't that hard for the few times we did that.

I remember this point of time where I had to go to the washroom. Now I know that there's a lot of people who died on that boat, but I wasn't prepared for what I saw. I opened the door, and I saw beds in front of me, the left was this dining area and the washroom was on the right. Ok, seems fair enough. 2 people went past me, to the dining area. I ignored them and moved to the washroom area as if there was nothing wrong. But there definately was. On the other corner was the beds, there were covers covering the sleeping area, but there wasn't anyone inside. However you can see a figure lying on the bed. So what exactly is that? I got so freaked out I didn't go to the washroom area anymore. And then there was chaos. Really chaos. Everyone was running around, fighting etc. But nvm, after a while it died down.

And so the actual mission came. And the 5 of us stood at the small opening which we will jump out of. And then there it was! The item floating about, like they said. I jumped in and grabbed it before the rest actually jumped into the water. They were like 'AIYA SO FAST TAKE FOR WHAT? No fun liao' but still helped me back on the ship.

Then we reached this place where erm. It's kinda freaky. We had to sit these "rides" that spins you round and round 360 degrees vertically. And you are seated in a really weirdly arranged manner. And then we had to sit on this boat, and we saw ourselves on the "rides" again. Pretty weird huh. Nevermind. So we continued onto this really weird area. Haha. There were witches etc. And my friends chose to go straight, where all the erm. Grasshoppers are? D8 And they'd attack us. OMG WTF ARE YOU GUYS THINKING?!?! I gave up halfway and went to where we came from originally. And I took the other route. Of course the ones my friends took was faster. But I came across some weird people, and one of them warned me of this witch. And then the train came, and I boarded it. Somehow my friends were on it as well, so it was ok. Then somehow the train was broken into two parts. D8 And I was the only one at the back. I did what I was supposed to do on the train, and then I went to sit at this hidden compartment at the very end of the train. It was so weird, I was all alone. And I kept staring at the passage that's beside me. I was frightened that someone or something would just walk past me, so I tried to hide as many parts of my body inside the hidden compartment, cause my right hand's elbow was sticking out. I felt really uncomfortable. But in the end it turned out ok.

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There's more details but I can't remember. HAIZ. T_T

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-24T21:54:00.000-07:00

Haiz. Quite a few things to blog about. LONG POST ALERT! -then again when are my posts short? =X -

I dreamt about that guy who pissed me off so badly. AGAIN. And yes I'm still reminded once again why and how pissed I am at him. ^^

Wednesday was love. I went to school for only PE. =D The time table was:

ELELPEPEMTRecessSSSSMathsMaths

All the teachers were absent except PE. ^^ So I only went to school for PE, w00t. 8D We had like. A bonding session the whole time after recess haha. We talked crap, first about the Teachers' Day party we will be throwing, and then about what will happen to us 20 years from now! Haha. Super funny.

Miss Teo's voice would be inaudioable because it'll get so high it becomes ultrasound. And moreover, bats will follow her wherever she goes, and so she will become batwoman. XD
While we will be walking the streets, we go donate money to this guy playing the guitar.. And then realize that it's Marcus D8
HuiPeng's children will be carrying a book wherever they go, or they won't go at all. And if she wants to punish them, she'll confiscate their books and force them to watch TV.
Felina's children will be all "WEI LI! BU YAO BAI CHI LARRR".
You will see two idiotic children roaming about. And then when you ask who's their parents, you will see Wei Li coming. [added by Wei Li= you will hear those opera CHANG CHANG CHANG and then you will see her coming]
Anwari's wife will be an Indian and they will do the Indian Bollywood dance. Around a pole/tree. And his wife will be all "ANWARIII!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!" in a really dramatic manner, and then she'll find him at the nearest tree!
Young Sing's child will meet the President and Prime Minister, including the Princes and Princesses of other countries. =D
Shilton's children will have Afro hairstyles. XD And he'll be the heir to the Hilton hotel.
Chance's Children will be forced to smoke and take Smack K, and be taught to shake leg whenever they sit
Ziqi's children will be smacking everyone every other time.
My children will next time be all gothic. XD By punishment they will have to be angelic. D8
Mr Njoo will become a girl, and then we'll be forced to guess who he is 20 years later D8
Mrs Sally Tang will die =X
Mr gng will be as headless as mr Ng [actually not true, Mr Ng got more hair liao leh peeps]

Haha. On thursday all the teachers talked about how free we were on Wed. XD Really funny. Btw Mr Njoo can't talk properly. He says that while his daughter was skipping it hit his chin, and he bit his tongue. Sounds kinda untrue, but whatever. o_o;

CONGRATS TO BERWIN FOR WINNING THE SOLO CAT. FOR TALENT TIME!!! =D Next time treat you go eat ice cream. ^^

Congrats also to Marcus and Sean for winning the group/band for talent time also. =D

Thankies to Berwin also for going to teach me Guitar. ^^ YOU BULLY ME WHILE TEACHING ME GUITAR I MAKE SURE U DIE ON PIANO. >D

These 2 days very good mood haha. =X

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-22T08:03:00.000-07:00

Haha. Yesterday was funnn. =3

Stayed back with Wei Li for POA stuff. Talked about cosplay, anime and Jrock. Haha. Then we went to get ice cream to eat. WHOOPIE. <3>D And you guys to find out. haha. >_>; Then I walked her to the same path again cause she wanted to walk home. O_O

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Today got up at 4+ and realized that my gut area hurts like fuck and that I kept feeling like throwing up. And I couldn't get rid of it, despite going back to sleep after some time and waking up again at 6+, which made things even worse. DX Mom still wanted me to go to school, wtf. I wanted to too, I studied like fuck for the test you know. =( Oh well. In the end didn't go.

I watched Dir en Grey's Cage and [KR] Cube PV. I'm once again reminded why I love them so much. <3

Thankies so much to dearest Norman [Osiris/Normi] for showing me these cute stuff. =3

Cute Overload

2 Rabbits Eating Together

... And my lovely Dir en Grey links!! <3
Kaoru making fun of Kyo XD

Toshiya licks Kyo while performing Hydra. Had it last time, gone when com reformatted. *_* It's love!

Cage PV

[KR] Cube PV

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-20T08:03:00.000-07:00

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Song: Cage
Artist: Dir en Grey
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Romaji

shibire wo kirashiteru
boku wa mado no chi wo hiki
sado no kimi wo matsu
dekireba doku no baiser de
hitan yue ni bitoku miezu
kimi wa saigo no mama de

kioku umete kizukarenu you ni
saigo no mama
tokei wa hidarimawari demo
okashita tsumi wa kaerezu
saisho de saigo no rikaisha yakitsukete

iyagaru boku wo mite
tsuyoku soshite yasashiku
muriyari no tetsudan
keshite kimi ni wa ienai
kawa no kishimu oto ga itai
kizu wo fukamete yukou
shittobukai kimi wa
itsudemo reiketsu na no?
osanai koro no gyakutai ga ne
ima demo wasurezu ni itai
naze mama wa inai no
oshiete yo

itsu ka wa yasashisa ni kizuite
haha naru
"yurikago" no naka de

hitsuu yue ni mae ga miezu
boku no saigo no mama de
semete kimi ni kizukarenu you ni
saisho no mamatokei wa hidarimawari demo
okashita tsumi wa kaerezusaisho de saigo no rikaisha
kowashita

boku ni wa yasashisugita no ka naa?
mukashi no torauma wo utsushi
saigo no kimi made kowashita boku wa sado?

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Kanji

シビレを切らしてる
僕はマゾの血をひき
サドの君を待つ
出来れば
毒のbaiserで
悲嘆故に美徳見えず
君は最後のMOTHERで
記憶埋めて気付かれぬように
最初のMOTHER
時計は左回りでも
犯した罪は変えれず
最初で最後の理解者
焼き付けて

嫌がる僕を見て
強くそして優しく無理矢理の決断
決して君には言えない
皮のキシム音が痛い
傷を深めてゆこう
嫉妬深い君は
いつでも冷血なの？
幼い頃の虐待がね
今でも忘れずにいたい
何故MOTHERはいないの
教えてよ

いつかはやさしさに気付いて
聖母なる「ゆりかご」の中で

悲痛故に前が見えず
僕の最後のMOTHERで
せめて君に気付かれぬように
最初のMOTHER
時計は左回りでも
犯した罪は変えれず
最初で最後の理解者
壊した
僕には優し過ぎたのかなあ？
昔のトラウマを映し
最後の君まで壊した僕はサド？

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English

impatient
the masochist's blood runs in my veins
I wait for you, the sadist
if I can do it
with a poisonous kiss

because of sorrow I cannot see virtue
you are the last mother
the memory buried so that you won't realise
the first mother
even though the clock turns backwards
the sin I've committed can't be changed
the first and last person who understood me
is burned into my memory

see me resisting
strongly and then kindly forcing a decision
I can never tell you
the creaking sound of leather hurts me
let's make the wound even deeper
you, deeply jealous
are you always so cold-hearted?
even now I don't want to forget
the abuse of my childhood
why don't I have a mother? tell me...

someday I'll realise kindness
inside the mother*-like "cradle"...

because of anguish I cannot see before me
my last mother
at least, so that you won't realise
the first mother
even though the clock turns backwards
the sin I've committed can't be changed
the first and last person who understood me
is destroyed

were you too kind to me?
the reflection of a trauma from long ago
I destroyed you, the last one
am I a sadist?

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Lyrics - Kyo
Music - Kaoru
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See why I find it weird that I cried? Haha.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-20T07:48:00.000-07:00

Haiz.

Today got even more pissed off by that guy. Shouldn't have replied him in the first place sia. Fucking hell. Piss me off even more. All the more I don't wish to speak to him.

That aside, I went to meet Leonard for physics. Ehhh. How come Nicky also come along arh? D8 Haha nvm, they were funny! XD Came up with funny names for all the physics formulars AND questions, along with how my teacher marks my work, and cracked some lame O level stuff. Lol, really funny. Oh well, at least I learnt something. =3

Then we went to Subway to have our lunner [lunch + dinner]. ZOMIGOSH ELMO I FINISHED OK? XD Then we sat there talk cock. Haha. Felt so full after finishing, lol. =X

Then hit the arcade! First they went to challenge themselves lar, so funny haha. Shot the wrong game they wanted to play, lol. =X Oh well it was interesting watching them play. Then we went to the DG arcade. Ray wasn't there. =( Nevermind, haha. We watched these 2 pros playing House of the Dead 4. Omg, one credit and played until last stage. D8 Wonder how much they spent on it, haha. They like know where and when to hit sia. Omg, rating all A. DX

So we went to play [leonard and me, HEY I GOT HIS NAME XD]. Died at second stage. AND ELMO YOU SUCK. Cause you made it to 3rd. xP

Then went to DDR, said hi to Aisubeki and friend cause they were there. =D Nicky and Leonard sat there and watched me DDR, cause they refused to play. T_T Then Leonard ran away halfway to play the fighting games, lol. So we joined him later after my DDR game. =D Omg they're funny, haha. Were hitting the buttons so hard the machine was shaking. O_O Then went to see Nicky play Initial D. Haha funny dude. So THAT's where he spend his cash on. Haha. Leonard="Now you know why he's so poor". LOL XD

Then went off liao. =] Luel couldn't join. T_T Cause she went to church. D8 Something I've not attended for almos tthe whole of this year, haha.

btw, what's the use of the sirens on ambulance arh? I mean like. I saw them on before, but they still stop at traffic lights. It's like.

Patient waiting for ambulance
EHHH. Where's the ambulanceeee? How come not here yetttt. Dying already lehhh. T_T

Patient in the ambulance
OIIIII. Drive faster lehhhh. Emergency lehhh, how come still stop at traffic lightttt? Life important one lehhh.

Haha. Just something I thought. But somehow related..? Why stop at traffic light sia. A bit no sense leh.

Oh, and I want to cosplay Dir en Grey one day, as I've always wanted to. =3 Most prob Cage bahz. Or Withering to Death image. I'm stuck on Cage!! @_@ And something's really wrong with me. I cried listening to Cage. o_O

Last thing. I said that if I forgot to bring my SS homework home I"ll bang my head against the wall. And guess what? I forgot. -Looks at wall- T___T

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

Haizzzz. What an eventful day. -sighs-

Morning got up early, chiong to get ready etc, only to have my dad volunteer to drive me to school. Wtf, then I wake up early and rush like mad for nothing sia. Sit down there stone while waiting for him to finish.

Then later the mock exam. HAIZ. Don't want to talk about it. Just.. No. =____=;;;

Then later went home and chiong to go out again cause I was freaking late [stupid Mr Tan made us stay back for nothing, wtf/], and I was supposed to meet Cruxifixation at 12, Tampines. I reached home at 11.40! D8 So chiong like mad. In the end lehhhh? She never turn up. =___= Waiting 45min for her, because later cannot liao, got something on. So sorry Crux!! -haha refer to later for more funny details-

After that went to Douby Ghout [sp?] to meet this guy called Tec who wants to crossdress as Linali from Dgray man. D8 Ermmm. Nvm. WA LAO HE LOOK DAMN MAN LAR. More man than Kazuki. Omg. D8 Haha online he's DAMN irritating, in real life he isn't that bad. Just that talk damn soft. Hard to hear what he's saying. =___=; WITCH CAT YOUR $100 IS WITH ME!! How do you want to take it? Then later went to the arcade to meet Muffin, and give Esther a surprise meeting! Haha. Oh well, they were both late. As usual. <_<>

Then Muffin came. =] She said that she has to go off first cause Esther's only coming at two, but she didn't realize that it's already after two, haha!! XD So she waited for Esther. =3 While I continued to DDR..... And then I saw Esther in this white formal buttoned blouse and black corset. OMG SEXEH. haha. Whoops. =X ESTHER YOU DIDN'T SEE ANYTHING. =D Haha they were being lazy so they didn't DDR with me. =(

So I went to Para. Hard mode on freestyle. Zomigosh I failed. Haha. Then Luel and her bf came. =D They went to play the hammering game, haha. IT LOOKS VIOLENT AND DANGEROUS I TELL YOU. D8 Then we went to play that sword game. Haha. OIIII. UNDERPERFORMING LARRRRRRR. Luel go smack your bf awake. =X Haha kidding. =D It was still fun seeing him play, haha. Then they went to play those erm. Fighting games, WHICH I SO TOTALLY SUCK AT. D8 Oh well, it was fun watching them, haha. Then went to DDR machine... And saw Kula , and another cosplayer who I apparently don't know. Just said hi and then went to DDR! =D With one of Leong's friend.

ZOMIGOSH I PASSED AFRONOVA ON HEAVY!!! <3>( Haha. Then we went to play House Of The Dead 4. Me and Luel's bf, that is. Geez I seriously have to remember his name. >_<;; Not bad, cleared stage 1, halfway of stage 2. HEY NOT BAD FOR FIRST TIMER OKKKK. >_<; Then we went to do para again, after Kula. Was debating if I should play Guitar Freaks or Para, but after seeing so many people Para I also chose Para loh. =X Failed at 4th stage, Station to Station. HAIZ. T_T Haha they were waiting for Niki [sp?] but he never arrived. Wonder how their waiting went, haha. Then I had to leave, so I left Luel and her bf. =] Took 65, after I followed them to This Fashion and showing them some "corsets' sold there. Haha. =X

I saw this cat along the way home that's like. Erm. If it were much much MUCH bigger, I swear people can mistake it as a cow. I'M SERIOUS!!! It resembled that horribly. D8 Then I also saw this weird guy. Driving a car and holding drumsticks. Haha. Whenever it's red light, he'll start hitting the steering wheel with the sticks as if he's playing a drum. Damn stupid, haha.

Later went to Tampines Mall with my parents. Got a new phone. =3 I didn't get N80 like I hoped to get, then again I didn't exactly have any phones in mind so I didn't really care. Got 6313, erm. Ok if I didn't get the model name wrong, haha. MY PARENTS ARE RETARDED. XD

Then eat dinner, then go home liao. Saw this lao ah bei walking this artic dog. O_O The dog is so nice. T_T But huge. D8

Saw Jesuke's pics. OMG YOU LOOK SO SEXEH WITH LONG HAIR. ARHHHH. >_<;;; -glomps-

OH! Regarding Crux part. Haha. ZOMIGOSH I SAW HER WITH HER BF WHILE DAD DROVE US HOME. D8 She was at the traffic light and my dad drove past her. Lucky she didn't see me. PHEW.

Anyway, Melissa asked me to ask that guy to help me burn the Discs, cause she can't burn as well. Sorry Melissa, not that I don't want to help you, just that I don't want to talk to that guy. ^^ After like. Almost a whole week [6 days min], I'm still damn pissed off at him. And I don't think that I'll talk to him soon. So I can't promise that I can bring myself to help you ask him, ya? Hope you understand, sorry once again.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
ELMO!! FASTER UNLOCK AMY LEH. I WANT TO ESTIMATE HOW MUCH CLOTH TO BUY.

2006-08-18T05:01:00.000-07:00

Haiz. Almost a week gone and I'm still pissed at that person. How wonderful. Wonder if he'll/she'll become the next Vegitto. =

Today was English O Level Oral. OMGG! I like so screwed up big time. Die liao larrr. T_T

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Error One:
Teacher: Tell me the qualities of a friend.
I heard it wrongly, heard it as "threat".
Me: Erm. Threat?
Teacher: -nods head-
So on I went, talking about qualities of threat when I was stopped halfway.
Teacher: Erm. Excuse me. Sorry Jane but did you manage to get the question correctly? "Tell me the qualities of a friend".
Me: OH SORRY!!! >________< -carries on with the actual subject-

WA BIANG EHH. Damn pai seh loh. Both teachers were laughing like hell. T_T

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Error Two:
=On qualities of friend=
Me: The person must be able to accept me as who I am and not expect me to change for him/her because then we would be together because of the fake personality that I have come up with.
Teacher: Erm. Sorry, together?
So I think she got it as BGR lar. Haha.
Me: Yup. Together, Erm like. Friends are together because they share a common interest, etc, but not because of your status and all that.
Teacher: -nods head-

HAIZ. =____=;

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I got like. 5 questions for the Conversation part. Reading area I'm quite confident. =X Picture was ok ok. So in other words...

Reading: <3
Picture: =
Convo: DX

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~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-16T03:41:00.000-07:00

Gah. What an event. I even DREAM about it.

Yup, at the person I'm still pissed off with. Dammit, it's bugging me so much to the point where I dream of it. T__T

Anyway today go school early SIAN ARHHH cause got Oral Practice with Mdm Lydiana. She said I'll do well. Whee~ =D

Then class ok ok lar. Today's PE was the most boring PE I've ever had in my whole entire life lar. Lol. DX

Decided not to retake MT O levels. Can pass can le right? That's what I said before I took it. And well, pass liao loh. -_-; Though a bit bek chek cause I went out of point. Haiz.

According to Mr Wong, he say that my E Maths should be able to get a B if I stop being lazy and start being consistant. Lol. =X Why everyone say I smart but lazy studyyyy. =____= [actually is true larr. Just dun want admit I lazy =X]

Went home with Berwin today. Haha. Thought that it'd be awkward since just met. Ok ok larrr, at least got common topic to talk about. =D He go tuition marhz. Then there got direct bus home. So took with him until the stop then took 28 back. <3~

Oh yeah! Discussed about the band with JaE yesterday. He wants 2 keys, Berwin on lead guitar and him on vocals. Vince on drums if he's good, considering not to take Ben in. I asked Nic but ermm. ._.; Nevermind. Berwin seems not to mind. =D JaE says that it might be visual. PLEASE BE VISUAL. T_T Haha. Don't worry Berwin~ If we do go into visual I'll help you sew your outfit larrrr when I'm free. But pay for the cloth ok? =]

Next streetfest might be performing. =]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
Now why do all Amy cosplayers I see use cotton or satin? = - =

2006-08-14T08:02:00.000-07:00

So continues the fucked up day.

Cried myself to sleep, yes even over such a petty matter which you obviously don't give a fucking shit about. Now why did I even bother apologizing?

Was thinking about shit, and thank you for reminding me how my life sux. I ended up crying like fuck, and crying myself to sleep. Oh well, at least Ray and TWS' comments on the fireworks made me smile a little.

Woke up with a splitting headache. Nvm. Got up, forgot burn Melissa's CDs. Tried so hard but cannot. Nvm. Left home forgot my files. Check time. Already missed the bus anyway. Nvm. Went back down to wait. Bus came 20min late, wtf. Almost late for school, arrived 2 min before bell ring.

Then go back class, Gng come kao bei us. Wtf. Path there for people to walk wattt. What's your problem.

Then after mock Mr Koh come kao bei us. Wtf also. No logic, so biased also!

Then come back ok ok. Took some pics. BUT I'M STILL PISSED OFF. My blood boils and my heart beats faster everytime I think about it. THAT mad. Not like the person[s] actually care.

Zeru bugged me like fuck, but I bashed him like fuck too.

WRote a song, tell you about that later. Thankies to that someone, for letting me write this song. =D To tell you the truth I'm still pissed even after expressing myself lieke this. First time I'm this pissed I think. And hurt.

Well discussed band stuff with Jae, gotta go inform Berwin about it. =]

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Song: Shattered
By: Nazhuka Mizhuki

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I"m hurt, and I'm broken
And I can't be
Pieced back together
And I know
You wont' speak [to me]
But I don't know
What I'm waiting for

Forgive me my friend
For I have done something to hurt you
[unknowingly]
But you know I'm human too
I can't deal with these emotions
[Anymore]
Like a shattered mirror
These wounds stay forever
[unwillingly]

All alone, on my own
And I still miss
Being with you
You don't care [at all]
Yet I don't know
Why I'm still waiting

Forgive me my friend
For I have done something to hurt you
[unknowingly]
But you know I'm human too
I can't deal with these emotions
[Anymore]
Like a shattered mirror
These wounds stay forever
[unwillingly]

Open your eyes
Look at my heart
See the cracklines
Hear my heart cry

This' my true self
[I'll] Not hold back
My fragile heart
Has broken~ Again~

Forgive me my friend
For I have done something to hurt you
[unknowingly]
But you know I'm human too
I can't deal with these emotions
[Anymore]
Like a shattered mirror
These wounds stay forever
[unwillingly]

Forgive me my friend
For I have done something to hurt you
[unknowingly]
But you know I'm human too
I can't deal with these emotions
[Anymore]
Like a shattered mirror
These wounds stay forever
[unwillingly]

I'm hurt and I'm broken
And I can't be
Pieced back together
[My shattered heart..]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-13T09:06:00.000-07:00

Coscon was ok. Nothing big, but at least managed to see my friends. =D

KOed Elmo again, mawhahaha.

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Today stayed home to chiong homework. Nothing much, but I'm pretty ticked off. Screw it, I am VERY ticked off.

First up, you know damn fucking well that I depend on my friends much. Don't have much interests in common, don't study same school, etc, what the fuck else do you want to talk about? Family background? Oh wow thanks a lot. And you like forget your other friends liao. Complain your 2 good buddies don't contact you, what about you? YOU? I don't seem to remember you contacting any of us, only letting us know when we've called you. Thanks SO much for complaining about your significant two and forgetting about "the rest of us".

Then leh? Better still. Note to all: Next time DON'T ask me anything if you don't intend to tell me why you asked. Why? IT PISSES ME OFF. BIG TIME.

Ok fine. So apparently it's my fault I don't have superhuman powers to look into the future. My fault that I don't know now. My fault that I'm pissed off, because you bugged me when I'm in a pretty darn bad mood. My fault that I'm not exactly POLITE when I happened to be PISSED OFF. My fault. My fault. Everything's always my fault. Fine then. FINE. Sorry.

So apparently it's a sin to be ticked off. Amazing. I learnt something new today. And leh? Know you're sick, I've been including you in my prayers. And then leh? AND THEN LEH? THANK EUU SO MUCH HORRZZ.

I seriously have issues with my own emotions. I don't even know how to deal with them. Thanks again for letting them go out of control. I was pissed until I was shivering a little, shedding tears and stuffing myself to the point where I almost threw up. Thankies so much. Now I need more prayers don't I? >>;

Anyway thankies Berwin and Nic for hearing me out. =D But Nic. YOU LEFT EARLY LARRR. WTF. NVM EVEN LET ME SAY BB. T___T -emos- NO worries also to Berwin, not mad at you for not forgetting about Coscon and oversleeping. Haha. =X

Well on the good side I could ji siao Elmo all I wanted, but I think I irritated him a little. Oops, sorry daddy! =X Next time see my mood how k? =D

Anyway I'm still damn fucking pissed off lar. DAMN pissed. Erm, ok not THAT pissed off. But yeah. Feel like apologising, but whatever foR? I'll most prob get another "nvm" or something that leaves me the mark that shows how insignificant I am. So there. Your point being..?

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
BTW NIC YOU STILL OWE ME THE CODE LAR DAMMITT.

2006-08-08T09:24:00.000-07:00

Lol, w00t. The fireworks display was nice sia!

First went to take some pics at home. I wore the vampire dress cause Luel wanted to see if she could fit in it, then a bit zi lian lar so took some pics, whoops. =X

Then went to zzzz a bit. Hey, I've been missing out on sleep so I go catch up marrrhhh~

Got up, showered then went to DG le. =D Tws cooked dinner for me. Yayness! Thankies~! <3

Then met Ray and Leong at the arcade. Leong and his friends also going to see fireworks, Ray didn't know that there were fireworks today. -_- But he followed me and tws there, lol.

Tws cooking not bad lar. Reminds me of my mom's cooking. =X Next time I cook for you also ok? No food poisoning one lar dammit. -_-; You stupid chairman of the la-me club, lol.

Then we walked to the Esplanade. Said lame jokes on the way, lol. Ray one really like. A bit catch no ball arh. o.o; SUPERRRR crowded sia. But we managed to get a good spot. =D Snapped some shots of them, lol. Ray was more willing, stupid neh neh la-me chairman hid his face. -___- Next time post up the pics ok? XD Took some pics of the fireworks, but Ray took the video of it. =] Post then next time also.

Get well soon Taku~! XD Christiana you didn't tell me what time you'll be at city hall. ><

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-07T23:07:00.000-07:00

Haiz long time no update liao, keep forgetting, lol. =X

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-Friday-

Was quite ok lar. Night class was ok as well. Oh well, the paper wasn't hard like Physics and Chem. =X Was supposed to go to TWS' chalet, but then he say I will very rush dun want me go, so I don't go loh. =X

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-Saturday-

Mock exam was ok, though I don't think I can do well. =X

Then later went home, Winnie smsed me ask me go change the shoes. =___= So I go loh.. Kuukuu na bei, she was SUPER late loh. Came at like 3pm? I waited over an hour for her. -___-

Then went to Cosplay Quest. A bit suck sia. The thing ended WAYYY early. When I reached there it just ended. =( Met Zeph in the washroom, lol. Saw Angeldecay on the bus, wtf. XD Then bumped into Elie on the way there. o.o Wa like bumping day hor, lol.

Did Linali again. =haiz= I TELL YOU I WAS BRUTALLY ASSULTED. >_<>(

Then go arcade loh. Played a round of DDR with Ray then nid zhao liao..

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-sunday-
Scha overslept. =( So she didn't go Taku's house to study physics. After that she was still sleeping, zomigosh. So I gave tws a ring, and then we agreed to go to the arcade. =D To kill time, since he working maaa, lol. Read Dgray man book 4 and 5 at Taku's place before going to DG. I died on DEAD END, looks like my end came early, lol. Bo stamina liao larrrrrr. Haiz. Did Para Freestyle on Hard mode, not bad wor! Still can pass. =X Money Go! Is currently stuck in my head. NUUOOOOOO. DX

Had lunch cum dinner, lunner*?* [lol, Ray XD] at Macs. Then he "bully" me there. T_T Oh well at least I not sian. XP

Then went to Comics Connection, didn't have anything that either of us wanted so we went to somerset, I walked him to his work place. SEE I SO NICE >_<>
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-Monday-
Mock exams killer paper lar.. Don't want talk about it. DX
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-Tuesday-
BIANG EH. Why everywhere I go I see red de. Like angry liddat, lol. What if got wild bull come then how? ARHHHHH. See. =P

Gahh. Money Go! is still stuck in my head. T_T

Going to see the fireworks at Esplanade with tws. Tama cannot make it. =( Who else wants to join us? =D
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Cosplay stuff:
EOY 06:
Luel bully me T_T Haha not really larrrrr. >D -pat pat- kidding nia

I saw some pictures of other people cosplaying Amy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that their cosplay was shitty as fuck and that they shouldn't do it, cause I don't think I'll make a very good Amy either. I'm just stating that I don't like the way their costumes turn out. It's the materials used bah. Cotton for that kind of dress texture is kinda. Off. >.O;

Cosfest 07:
I will most prob be doing either YGO or X/1999.

YGO:
I was asked to do DMG by Luel. But I lazy to. eh. Do the drops leh. DX All that armour. If I do most prob is Change of Heart or Princess of Tsurugi loh. =X MELISSA DO DMG KKKK? XD

X/1999:
I was thinking of Tokiko Magami, but then I don't look so girly. =X Karen doesn't suit my face. =/ Then my friend ask me to cosplay Nataku, wtf. O___O He's like. TALL? I'm like, a midget? -_-; Oh well.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-03T08:02:00.000-07:00

WA BIANG EHHHHHHHHHH. -________- *yawns like fuck*

TIREDDDD. I want to sleep, but cannot! Stupid fucking bio mock tomorrow, my sleep HOW?!?!?!?!??! 22 chapters leh, mind ou...

Today was damn pissed off. STupid bus refused to come, almost made me late. Na bei wtf sia. Lucky could squeeze in.

Then didn't have my student journal with me. Wtf again. =___= Lucky Joelin could lend me one. IF NOT. >_>

Then later lessons loh, not bad. Cheered up a bit cause were talking cock. Oh well. Then later recess kinda regretted eating so "much" cause was full for practically the whole day. Think something's wrong with me le, haha. ._.; Bio lesson was ok, E1 was scolded, wtf. Sat beside Chun Peng. Haha erm ok. I hereby conclude that that guy doesn't laugh at jokes AT ALL. Only at random stuff THEN he laughs. ._.;

Then MT nothing much. Slacking and finishing English files mostly.

Recess only grabbed a drink then went to hall and rot. =/

Chem was quite ok, started to get sleepy though. Then EL ok ok lar, was sleepy too but at least managed to hand in all the files. E Maths was ok, but homework load too much larrr. X_X

Then came POA hai-programme which we did not know. Many tried to hide, but Chun Peng was the funniest. Hid at the balcony, LOL. XDDDDDDD The whole class nicknamed him Chun Peng Man [cause got Superman, Batmon, so call him Chun Peng Man loh, lol. CPM.]. =D Oh, and Wei Li and her Bakanishi Kingdom, I'LL TAKE OVER YOUR SPOT AS QUEEN SOON. Well or so Daiyan and Felina says anyway, cause apparently I'm pretty lame too. -gets stares from Elmo and the rest- *sweatdrops*

Then CCA commendation day. Stupid fucked up shit. Complete waste of time. Pissed me off SOOOOOOOOOOOO badly.

Sorry Felina for interrupting you unknowingly today twice. >_<>
Sorry to Miyoko for being late too, that fucktard commendation ate my time.

Now just finished bio The Eye notes, damn super fucking tired due to the lack of sleep for the whole of this week and last week. Think going to have panda eyes soon le. DX Want to die le, my bio mock how? Should I study the rest?

Anyway Thankies to Tama and Bleahhh for buying me the awesome gift when you guys went to Taiwan!!! =3 super cute. <3>

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-08-02T08:52:00.000-07:00

Waaa. -haiz- Damn tired sia. Damn taxed. DX

Yesterday nothing much [actually is I forgot larrrr. >> Shhh. =x]. SO not saying. =D

Today still quite ok. Was in quite a good mood. =D PE was fun, lol. Got mata come sch sia. Cause got theft case, apparently 1 of the 5N guys was caught, the other still on the loose. ~_~

No hai-program, but some of us still stayed back for some class bonding. =D Marcus played the guitar, Sean did the violin. <3

Then later went home loh. And then shwoered before going to DG to meet Elie. Took bus 65. Regretted it. SUpposed to spend 1h30min, ended up spending 2h 45min on the fucking bus. NA bei. Got SOOOOO pek chek. >( SOrry Elie! >_<

Then went to Parklane Mall eat Mac. Talk cock there, then started studying. =D Later Elie wanted go arcade, so go loh~ Did GuitarFreaks and Para. Guitar Freaks got extra stage, w00t. <3>

Then taxi queue so many people but no cab, wtf. SO went the other side take. NO ONE FLAG CAB. Like wtf. Stand there queueing for taxi but don't flag cab. Then also come freaking cabs u flag le don't stop. =__= Lucky one that only could go Tampines came by. =D Then come home loh. And got pissed off by my mom, as usual. Say what at night still wear black for what. Like H-E-L-L-O. My blouse is WHITE. Just happens that my jacket is BLACK. And I wore it cause I was fucking COLD from all that air-con? >> Then had to e-mail Ms Teo so on com, tio meh again. Na bei wtf sia.

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EXTRA! My theory why HSC's ways of thing are really lame.

1] "read when you're free"

Let's ignore the non-graduating classes. Main focus is sec 4E5N. Now, why is it so that we still have to read a book whenever we have nothing to do, during our morning assembly, our breaks, and during free periods? I mean, stop and think about it. Our prelims and Os are coming, why are we only obliged to English in school? You mean we can neglect the other subjects arh? There isn't enough time allocated to the rest of the subjects loh. You can't STUDY during any of the times mentioned above, cause you get caught by teachers [especially our dear Bak Hong] and then you get yelled at, punished [maybe], and get that book or material confiscated from you. Think about it, how is that fair?

Os and Prelims coming liao, we want to revise. But why can't we use that time except during our level exams? Not fair loh. School end so late, still got homework all that, mock exams etc, how to have ample time to study? Besides, if you open your mind and think a bit, revising is also contributing to our english knowledge and the subject knowledge loh. The textbook is in ENGLISH, not some foreign language, ailen language or some weird unknown language from Pluto. It's ENGLISH loh. I mean like wtf. Still reading English rite? >>;

2] Stupid assignments and competitions

Main focus again on 4E5N. Now O level and prelims coming liao, how come we are still so full of shit that we must do? First came the CME project. So xi bei lame, still must do. Somemore is last year liao, cannot focus on our studies..? A bit no point leh. Especially these kind of stupid lameshit topic.

Then came the notice board decoration competition. I mean like, the Sec 4s and 5s already damn sian, don't want do, and focus on studies, but somehow we're forced to do? So despite us wanting to study we're obliged to waste our time doing some shit to the white blank space behind the classroom. Wtf. Can't we use this amount of time left WISELY?

Then comes our Chinese work. I mean seriously like wtf. After finishing ALL the O level MT shit, we still have to join Chinese Compo competition, and join the Newspaper Writing Competition? I mean seriously what the FUCK? Can't we use this time constructively? >>; Wasting our time. How to study liddat?

-haiz-

I rest my case.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-31T08:21:00.000-07:00

Wa seh na bei. This week will be damnnnnnnnnnn long and tiring. I'm already so filled with fatigue. -__-;;

-Last week-
Fri: sick
Sat: Photoshoot
Sun: Studying at Taku's place, then at Elmo's

-This week-
Mon: 2 mock exam papers
Tues: physics test, CME project due
Fri: Mock exam, biology night class until 8.30pm
Sat: 2 mock exam papers, Cosplay Quest

-Next week-
Mon: E Maths mock exam
Fri: E Maths mock exam, biology night classes

I'M DYING OF TIREDNES. ARGHHH. T_T Someone save me. T_T

I think I spent, like, 1/4 of the time in school today sleeping, lol.

Well my prelims start this month, so I won't be going out to play that much guys!!! Mostly to study only. =X Even if I do go out with you guys, I think it'll most prob turn out with me bombing you with questions regarding my studies. ><;

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EOY Plans:

I readAmy's [from Soul Calibur III] profile yesterday. It was hard work I tell you! Almost no sites had her info AND pics. DX Too minor a character, lol? -__-; And confirm doing her. =D Cause well. My RPG OC has somewhat the same profile as hers, so shouldn't be that hard to identify with. =D Besides, I like it. <3>

Pic:
http://i28.photobucket.com/albums/c245/mizhuki/Cosplay/Soul%20Calibur/Amy.jpg

Doesn't look that hard to make. Good thing is that I already have her shoes, so I don't have to buy. =D Just have to figure out how to stick a rose there, lol. The stockins I know where to get too, but stupid neh neh Fluffy chope it from me. >( So now need to find. T_T Luel is making my sword for me, thankies love. <3><

Well something to worry about. According to Cruxification [Dawn], the material needed for her costume costs like bitch. ><

<<>> Savage Eden.//- † The Fatal Revelation says:
ooh, another sneaky detail. Amy's clothes are made out of brocade. Good luck. Brocage is sibei ex.

And apparently her skirt is 2 layered. So somehow I have to find a way to make them poof both poof up. Thankies for bringing it up, though I'm quite aware of it. ><>_<].

Wig-wise I'll be ordering from PH, cause it's either her or SCC. Cause I need to style my wig [you trust me in handling the wig myself meh? Lol.]. She can't quote a price yet, so still waiting for her updates. =D

I was thinking if I should make the arm warmers myself. Cause I need to chiong the dance after my Os. Hmmmm.. I think I'll get Kelton to do it, if he doesn't mind lar. Cause he still owes me a costume. =X

Amy has green eyes, yayness. She's left handed, yayness. -____- Work work work. -haiz-

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+++Double Cosplay [maybe]+++

International Psychic Yuna

Pic:
http://i28.photobucket.com/albums/c245/mizhuki/Final%20Fantasy/internationalyuna.jpg

Luel is making my visor for me. =D Thanks a lot dear. <3

Boots is going to be a headache. -sighs- As for the gloves, I know where to get 'em, and for cheap too! =3

Tailors say that the costume isn't that hard to make as well. Hmm. I'll see how it goes for this double. =x

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

Waa so long no update liao. =x [ok lah not that long XD;]

Friday actually wanted to go for mock exam and bio class, but somehow I kept feeling like throwing up, Pong Pong sent me home. =/ So sad? Oo; Don't let me stay. T_T

Saturday was alright. I went out at 1pm+. I was kinda scared that I'll be late, cause I'm meeting Witch Cat first before meeting Kie and Losse at City Hall for the photoshoot. =X I wasn't late in meeting Witch Cat. =D I'm no longer that mad at her anymore. She lent me her Linali costume. ^^ Then went to City Hall. Was late. ._.; But but but. Kie and Losse were later!! >__<>_<>

Sunday arh. Haiz. Today was like damn fun loh. Morning got up earlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cause need to go Taku's house at 10.30am, cause he's teaching me Physics. =D Got up parents still just got up also, and just went down to get breakfast. =_= Oh well. So I on com. >D My mp3 player was causing trouble, so I left home late. Gomen Taku! =( Reached there at least, 10.45am? Lol. Not that late larrrrr. -_- Then he teach also like know but dunno liddat. o_o Oh well, Thanks anyway. XD

Then went to meet Ziru at Toa Payoh. Had Macs for lunch. =X ELMO I ATE THE WHOLE MEAL OKKKKK? -__- Then went to Elmo's house. =D Had quite a fun time chatting with Ziru on the way there. XD Then we came to his house. He lives near chibi. D8 Oh well, haha. Then he taught me Physics, Chem AND Bio. Eh somehow he teach better than Taku arh. o_o; But then couldn't really study cause crap about a lot. Whoops. =X After finish liao watch movieeeeee! =D It was fun, and Elmo showed me the dance steps that he wanted to do for EOY. Well, similiar to that dancestep anyway, lol.

It was total KO man! Haha. Naz > Elmo. MAWHAHAHAHAHA. >D Oh well. Overall, not bad. =D Now just have to chiong chemistry. =X

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
I got black shoes now, yay!

2006-07-27T07:47:00.000-07:00

Today was also kinda lazy. A bit overslept. ^^; Lucky still got to school early. Lol? Oo

Anyway so sorry MISTER for "almost killing myself" [when I didn't even inflict a fucking cut] during bio practical. A bit stupid, even if I cut my finger it's not like I'll die from it. >> Scold me for what? I was laughing at myself because I couldn't cut the specimen right even after so many tries. Then you say I not serious, almost killed myself blah blah blah. Ok fine. So sorry that I don't give much of a shit about my life cause apparently it's been so miserable and pretty pointless, where my goals and aims in life are not yet figured out and I don't think I ever will, and that I'm still pissed off at the people who are still ignoring me [and the retards who still pisses me off].

So pretty much yeah, I dont' think I'll even give a fucking shit if that scapel cut into me and killed me. Just that you owe my family and the public an explaination. =/

"Girl died doing experiment in school". What if. o_o Haha ok I'll stop it. >>

So sorry that I don't give a shit about my life. =D

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
Question of the day: Why does rice become soft and sticky instead of turgid when you put in a lot of water and cooking it? =P

2006-07-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

Freaking hell. I am pissed off lar.

Why the FUCK does our dear "co-form teacher" sabotage our form teacher? Instead of working together? HOD so what? Big fuck arh? To the extent until Ms Teo cry. Damn shiok rite? You love pushing people to their wits end and then start making them break down? Then why don't you like. Go yell at your son until they hate the fuck out of you and then you be glad about it? We were about to add you in our grad speech I think, but I think we can happily exclude you. Ms Teo is such a nice person, what the fuck is wrong with you?

And then. This fucking TWAT won't stop bothering. Signed into another account and all that shit, try to bluff me. HELLO. I not as stupid as you ok? You're ANNOYING. Leave me alone can? And just a note, you can't fuck hell. It doesn't have a hole for you to stuff your dick in.

Anyway I'm pretty fed up. *this person* said that I should go shopping with him/her cause he/she is bored. Asked me out today. Was, like, "why? Too caught up with your school friends arhhh? Forget about us izzit?". Eh. Like, HELLO. It's YOU who told me to study hard one ok. I have exams like, twice every week loh. And I this week got 2 more tests, aside for the mock exams. Then leh? Today got other plans. And didn't even tell me, wow. I had to ASK before you open your gold-filled mouth to let me know that you can't make it cause you have stuff on. Turns out that he/she going out with his/her friends. Watching movie. Yayness, also never tell me. =/ Go out in groups also never tell me. Who's the one who's too caught up with his/her friends that she forgot me? =/ I'm always NOT informed. Not aware of all your dear group meetings. Until I just so happen to ask, THEN I know. Ya, and is like you didn't even ask if I want come along. Just say that you cannot. Liddat only. Wow so comforting hor. I know shit is going on. But then leh? My fault arh? No rite? Treat me like fuck. If I didn't care liao I wouldn't even bother going all the way there, you think it's damn near izzit? I didn't forget you guys loh, I still ASK if you want to tag along. You guys leh? Not a single word. Not a single, fucking word. Ya, fine. Go ahead and exclude me. You guys used to it le wa. Go for what sia. Bai sui? It's not like when I was with you guys you actually made an effort to make it seem as if I wasn't invisible anyway.

And no, I'm not directing it at only one person. I'm speaking about A FEW. You can call me selfish, possessive, childish WHATEVER. Anyway I was, afterall, suggested to do Hikaru, no? Similar personalities maybe? You asked me to find my own circle of friends. Wow, and then YOU are the one that's throwing me aside. Wow, thanks a lot. Thanks A LOT. I now know how valueable my presence is. I've had NO CLOSE FRIENDS EVER in my whole entire life, and my family is full of shit. No one that's closely related to me by blood gives a fuck nor believes me, both my grandfathers are dead and both grandmothers of mine are facing health problems. I get shit in school AND at home, and now I have to exclude my outside friends too? Thanks for all the burden guys. Thanks so much. No, I'm not referring to Muffin's group. The OTHER group. No, not Elmo's group of friends except SOMEONE. =D Want a close friend for once in life so hard arh? Want to have a nice family also so much arh? School life at least improving, but still. I put on a happy face, but so what? Inside is like a shattered mirror. =/ If you can then go piece back loh. If it's that easy. Happy pieceing back the broken mirror. =D

I'm not someone to pang seh, someone to cheat whatsoever. I'm pissed off. Who can really read me, know how I'm really feeling without me having the need to open my mouth? No one, I'm quite confident. And I'm pretty pissed. I'm sick of always having the need to stand up for myself. AND YOU GUYS WHO CAN'T EVEN FUCKING COMFORT ME ARE NO BETTER. =/ Instead you guys make me feel worse. Thanks so much guys. SO MUCH.

If any of you are offended reading this, TOO BAD cause this is how I really feel. Complain I don't talk and share enough, fine lar. There's a piece of my mind. Not happy then fuck off. Or you can attempt to redeem yourself. =D Like anyone would. ¬_¬

Supposed to go to Douby Ghout and Jurong today. Since Witch Cat can't make it, I not going Jurong le. Then I wanted to drop by DG initially. But then since those wonderful people want to exclude me then nvm loh. I don't want to go to that fucking place. And technically speaking I don't wish to see that fucking twat. But a bit bo bian. -if I say somemore a bit obvious who that person is le-

You can call me whatever you want, but this is just me. "You wont' change unless you yourself take the first step". I can happily tell you that I'm not going to fucking change for you guys. =D So there. My decision was right afterall. I don't regret it. Not one bit. And I'm actually glad I made it. You guys either have family problem, or have friends problems. But not both. I have both. So shouldn't you guys should be able to understand a bit better how I'm already suffering inside? Not enough right? Must add a pinch of salt to my already wounded heart right? Thanks. THANKS. You guys have someone to fall on. Your family, or you friends. One, of both of them. Me? I have none. NONE. And you guys complain so much.. Can you spare a thought for me as well? Oh wait sorry, forgot my place, how UNIMPORTANT I am. My bad. Everything I think I've gotten close friends, they'll do some fucking shit to disappoint and hurt me like fuck, and then I'll feel alone again. Thankies x million guys. ^^

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

Wa damn weird night sia. -referring to yesterday-

My toothbrush dropped into the sink by itself. o_o And it fell from the top, when there's like no reason whatsoever as to how it can drop lar. Cause there's this thing that's under it to catch the toothbrush, and I put it quite steadily. o_o

Then later went to sleep. Fell asleep while praying halfway. Then I suddenly woke up and started to cough REALLY violently. To the point where I was shedding tears and I almost threw up. o___o And no, I'm not sick. That's the weird part.

Then I went to bed, finally... Fell asleep. Had this weird dream. I was in school [why do I keep dreaming of school-related stuff arh?] and then I was called to the parade square area, near canteen. Near the Mother Mary statue there lar. Then we had to hold these bugs in our hand. I didn't hold it, I didn't even TOUCH it. But then it grew in size, bigger... bigger.. And then it started to attack me. And I woke up and bolted out of bed. Literally. o___o Then had troubles going back to sleep, cause regardless of what I do I keep seeing that bloody bug attacking me. o_o

See lar, then now I so tired. T_T Anyway hurt my left leg during bio prac, lol. Banged into the table, wtf. Then got a cut. XD;

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-23T06:19:00.000-07:00

Wa today damn pissed off sia.

I had to fucking get up by 9am when my slept until 11am+. It's like 2 hours lar. Not fair at all lar. >>

Then went to Sakura eat. Ok lar, it was ok. Wow I had a lot for lunch sia. xD

Ebi
Sushi
Teriyaki Chicken
Lemon Chicken
Cocktail
Ice cream
Satay
Salad
Drink? [if that counts xD]

Waaaa damn shuang arh. Today like eating day for me, lol. Then went to Tampines Mart. And then I got SO pissed off. I thought they were going to get my sis her laptop for her DEAR university. Turns out she's getting an ipod. Dammit lar. She gets it just because she wants it. I've been wanting it for so fucking liao lar. And I still don't get one. Na bei. And she got Apple loh. Dammit.

- went to drive Winnie to her friend's house -

Went to this fucking weird place. Music House or something. Went to get her her ipod. Those fucking retards. Want to see ipod dunno go until the TV section, washing machine section for what sia. As if they resemble mp3 players. Nevermind, it's ok. So we FINALLY go to the mp3 section. They like mouth got gold liddat. Don't even know how to bloody ASK when they're unsure of things. It pisses me off lar. To the point where I was the one doing most of the work. Dammit. And who was it for? HERRRRRR. Not me. >> It wasn't until they saw me with a damn fucking pissed off look and a black face where they asked with this REALLY buay song tone + face if I wanted it or not. I was happy that I FINALLY could get one. But then they complain here, complain there. Na bei. In the end I got SOOOOOOOOOOOO fed up and just took the one that they wanted me to get [with indirect speaking. I was pissed off though, I didn't really want it, but when I said I'd take the other one they complained like FUCK].

Then went to Yue Ze's house. Haha. Waaa a lot of people sia. Went there to visit Ah Ma. =] Long time no go his house le. =3 House so hotttt, lol. Ok lar. At least had fun there. =D Talked to Yong Lin and Jin Long. Wa very long never talk to them liao. T_T Parents always go when I not free. >> So we talked cock there loh. Quite fun, haha. Then Yue Ze came home [he was out initially]. Then we talked even more cock. xD Wa another eating session! XD

Tapioca
Grapes
Cake
Cuttlefish
Rice
Seaweed
Soup
Vegetables [lettuce]
Vegetables [broccolli]
Scallop

Haha. Then I played Suteki Da Ne [original by Rikki] on the piano. =D Their piano like how many years nv use liao. xD Keys a bit problem. DX Some can't really press properly. =X Then went to Yue Ze's room to join him and Yong Lin and Jin Long to learn play guitar. Halfway Xi Xiu came back. =D Yayness. Zomigosh Yue Ze's electric guitar is lurve lar. <3 But I still think Derrick's one nicer leh. Green leh. w00t. Anyway. I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY QING TIAN!! Mawhahaha. First one to master, Yue Ze was teaching the 3 of us [not including Xi Xiu]. Then followed by Jin Long. WAHAHA YONG LIN, NO NID QI PIAN XIAO MEI MEI LIAO LARRR. XDDDD But ya lar, damn random shit but ya. Not bad.

Popular no sell my textbook. =( So sad.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

I'm going to eat my waffle now. <3
BLOGSPOT CAN YOU FUCKING STOP DELETING MY STUFF AND THEN FUCKING REFUSE TO LET ME EDIT? >>

2006-07-22T20:27:00.000-07:00

Haha a bit sian lar. So took quite a few quizzes. =X

You Are: 60% Dog, 40% Cat

You are a nice blend of cat and dog.
You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful.
And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are a Kinetic Learner

You learn best by doing, and you have a talent for complicated, physical tasks.
You excel at athletics, drama, and fixing things.
You would be an excellent Olympic athlete - or a Broadway star!

What's Your Learning Style?

Halloween Horoscope for Pisces

You tend to go for traditional, if not a bit historical, Halloween themes.
Candied apples, pumpkins, and warm cider make you excited each year.

Costume suggestions: An evil sorceress / sorcerer or a renaissance pirate / wench.

Signature Halloween candy: Candy corn

What's Your Halloween Horoscope?

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom

What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love.
You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!)

Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic

What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays

Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.
Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers
And no wonder: you live life to the fullest!
When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place
But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

What Goddess Are You?

You Are Suede Boots

Your boots were meant to be just that, boots. You're all about cute and functional.

What Kind of Boots Are You?

You Are Winter!

Intelligent
Serious
Cozy
Calm
Shy

What Season Are You?

Your Fashion Style is Classic

You like what's stood the test of time...
Simple, well styled clothes that don't scream trendy
You stay updated and modern, but your clothes stay in style for a while
You wouldn't be caught in animal prints, fake fur, or super bright colors

What's Your Fashion Style?

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-22T09:57:00.000-07:00

Haiz. Today nothing much loh. Was pretty much pissed off the second I got up. -refer to previous post-

Then in the end didn't celebrate Winnie's birthday, postpone to tomorrow [or today, rather, seeing that it's almost 1am, lol]. Then decided to go out meet Elmo and gang because staying at home was driving me nuts. Decided to take the bus cause got more time to do my Maths homework. =D So off I was on the bus.. Handwriting suddenly become damn ugly sia. [Means I have nice handwriting? Oo Hur hur? No lar, so so only] The answer key was damn weird, so I decided to check with them later. =D

Then reached there like, 20min early. Oo Got a shock, haha. But nvm.. I RUN TO ARCADE! =D Like no one there sia.. Saw Ray outside smsing, lol. Went to say hi. =] Then saw Aisubeki they all. Wanted to put but 7 credits, wtf sia. O.O But then later like no one put le so I put loh. xDDD Underperform sia. Then Ray DDRed with me again. =] And then I DDRed with Aisubeki. XD

Then met people like Kula there loh. Just went to say hi to her then didn't talk liao [except for asking her if she DDR? O.o]. I still prefer Jesuke's paraing to Kula's leh. -hmmm- Jesuke > all.

*AHEM*

Ok maybe not all. *sweatdrops*

Anyway catched MAR and Dgray man. Wondering if should get Dgray man manga though. MAR I watched anime AND manga, so no biggie.. AND AH HA! SAME SERIYUU AS TAKAO! [Not Naruto ok pcy? >_>] MY EARS DIDN'T FAIL ME. <3

Then as usual, had quite a lot of fun loh, with Ziru they all. She ask me to cosplay Hikaru. o_O Nvm, at least got blue hair lar haha. o_o

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-21T19:50:00.000-07:00

WTF. I am PISSED OFF. What the FUCK is wrong with that bitch in my house? Na bei. The moment I got home only already pissed me off. I was carrying a fucking heavy bag and lots of shit in my hands. Obviously I didn't have enough hands to open the fucking door. And she was there, sleeping on the sofa with my dad [don't think sideways. Think straight. Just SLEEPING]. And so I got SO fed up, I pushed open the door [cause only the gate was locked] and started yelling at them. THEN she woke up. Then she was like, "dunno how to ask us open the door, must push the door open arh?" and all that shit. And I was DAMN pissed off lar. Ok what so now MY fault that you were asleep, couldn't hear and that I'm short of arms to open the damn door?

Then later they had TV on. And my parents were sleeping lar. AGAIN. And obviously I got fed up, cause they always accuse me of wasting electricity. So I told them to turn the TV off if they're not going to watch it. My mom was still SOOO sound asleep that she didn't know I called. So obviously I got even more fed up and YELLED. And then she was like, "Can't you see that I watching arh? What I never watch". RIGHHHTTTTT. So somehow you are able to watch with your eyes shut and your ears cut off from the rest of the world. RIGHT. SOOOO believable. You didn't even fucking respond when I called you and you dare claim that you're WATCHING TV? Wow. So amazingly interesting. Your eyes can see when they're closed and your ears can hear when you're sleeping hor? Wow. WOW. Just. wow. >_>

Then today I was DAMN tired. Cause yesterday had night classes till late and I only got home at 10m+. Obviously I was tired rite? Then I go and sleep. And she DIE DIE MUST come fucking wake me up at 9am. NINE LEH. DAMMIT. PEOPLE DAMN TIRED ONE LOH. You cannot use your fucking brain and think one arh? >_> Next time you damn fucking tired I go wake you up you see whether you like it or not lar. Na bei. Use your bloody pea-sized brain will die one arh? >_> Then my sister still sleeping so happily. What did she do yesterday? Go out playyyyyyy. Didn't even fucking work. Still let her sleep so much. I had to STUDY until like 9pm lar. IN SCHOOL. And somehow being tired and wanting more sleep is a crime. I'm fed up. I'M FED UP.

So Elmo? Expect me there today. Why? Cause staying at home is only making my life even shorter, not like that's a bad thing [cause that means I can tolerate less shit]. But I HATE those bitches at home. ESPECIALLY the bitch. =]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
On the side note, I got a B for DEAD END on heavy. =D Only happy thing. Fucking shit. But Bio class was ok. Lar. Friday was ok.

2006-07-20T08:05:00.000-07:00

Haiz. So starts the day of nothing but sheer sleepiness and laziness. Yes, that's how I was for the whole day, lol.

This is the exact reason why I hate eating that damn medication. Make me so tired. >(

Wah sian arh, tomorrow bio night class. T_T Wonder can dont' wear school U or not? =X Go ask that Njoo tomorrow. =D

Sorry to the peeps who asked me to go out but I didn't. ._.; I was.. Erm ah eh. Just. Erm. Lazy. Erm, yeah. Whatever.. ><;

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-19T07:36:00.000-07:00

Today was.. A mixture of everything. Like rojak lar, lol.

Woke up late. Thought would be late for school! Lucky never.. Still early by 10min. O.O Next time wednesday can wake up at this time.. But a bit scary. Cause if miss bus then gone le. DX

SS was ok. Weird, I can do all Levels and get stuff that majority can't, but when I write it down in black and white, it somehow just all disappeared. And that's how I do badly. o__o Weird rite? Have it in my head, but can't score. Haiz~. T_T Then Erm. -tries to recall- English arh? Just do filing and do corrections loh. Chem also nothing much, haha. Then Chinese. Also nothing much. FREE PERIOD LEH. ZOMIGOSH. Though Ms Yang was here, haha. <3 WTF. STILL GOT MT LESSONS UNTIL AFTER WE GET OUR RESULTS. WTF MAN. >(

- Recess -

BIO PRACTICAL!!! Haiz. Ms Farah leaving le. T_T Bio pract today was quite ok also lar. Why everything I also quite ok de arh? Lol. ._.; Then was E Maths. Ms Teo not here again, so used this time to study for POA test. =] Then got the video of Mr Gng being dunked, hur hur hur.

POA test.. Don't talk to me about it. TALK TO THE HAND! m\_/m Then went home. Wanted to DG arcade but then raining. T_T SO go home first loh.

Then DAM pek chek. I got SO fed up. My mom. The FUCKING second she came home, kao bei me like fuck. When I came back still raining, when she came back JUST stop. She see windows close, come scold me. Wtf na bei, what's your problem? You expect immediate action arh? THEN DO YOURSELF LAR. Then every fucking second come kao bei me about something. What never study lar, bug me go do this do that. Na bei, I got life one also ok. Never see Winnie so free at home, can sleep and watch tv, slack around, ask her do will die arh? Na bei. See me busy still come nag nag nag. Think damn shiok arh? >>

I got so mad. To the point of me crying. THAT mad. =/ Then I didn't give a fuck about her and her whining, and complaining about shit. I just walked out of the house. What for shorten my life for her sia? =/ Then realized that I forgot my wallet only after reaching the bus stop, lol. Then ran home to get it again. -haiz-

Then at arcade not bad lar. Wanted to do DEAD END on heavy for last stage but TWS chose Tsugaru. Then nvm loh. Anyway today underperforming. Lol. Watched him para. Omigosh he damn pro sia. OX Then we played Flash of the Samurai. Haha. Stupid shit. Eh he quite pro leh. o_O Died at second stage. I die on first, haha.

Then go home liao loh. Still so pek chek. My ez-link card left $0.05. Haha. xDDD Next time must take bus liao. T_T

Thankies to TWS for changing his interview time to come out and pei me go arcade after he knew about my mom bitching me. =D Thankiesssssssssssss. Good luck with your Lacus cosplay btw, lol. FLUFFY IS A NEH NEH. *Points* Neh neh mom, lol. o_o; Sorry to Esther for not being able to make it on Friday. =( REALLY sorry. Another time, k? =X

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

Blogspot. Is. Fucking. PISSING. ME. OFF! Na bei. Can stop deleting parts of my posts every single fucking time I post or not? I edit until DAMN pek chek already ok? CAN YOU STOP IT? NA BEI. >_>

Anyway the parts that you missed:

Wei li was actually help to the team. That self-proclaimed retard. Haha. D:

Alex didn't call so I didn't rush home, instead went to take bus, showered, play com etc before going investiture. The investiture was ok lar. Not bad. Only Pei Xian remembered to thank my batch. Haiz. OH well. THANKIES DEAR LAMPY! XD Then we had free pizza. Cheryl treat. New EXCO should give old EXCO farewell gift rite? >D

EXCO 2005 rox. Lurve you guys! =3

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-18T06:52:00.000-07:00

Haiz. Very stupid. Forgot to blog yesterday again. xD Hur hur. So blogging for both yesterday and today.

-Monday-
Yesterday was quite ok, Mdm Lydiana didn't come. And I was worried for nothing over my unprepared oral, lol. ._.; And then that stupid (+|\|(+ come make trouble with us. Was yelling like fuck at the whole upper sec, like wtf. Then the instructions gave wasn't clear, it was so abrupt and unexpected, and didn't address who it's directed to. When we didn't know we get yelled at and then get treated as if we were some little kid who didn't have any discipline at all. Wtf man. =/ Think we dunk him too much he not happy larrrr. Haha.

The listening compre was ok lar. We were quite bored waiting for it to start cause it pushed back 30min and all that classical music that they were playing over the channel made us sleepy. Then Mr Lua came and made us laugh. Haha! He tossed the bear bear soft toy and then pretended to eat it. SO FUNNY. XDDD Then Chance imitated it, but then made these stupid faces as if he was going to scare it. Haha. TOTALLY lame shit. xD But oh well. It kept us awake alright. =]

-Tuesday-
Today Ms Teo didn't come. NUUUUOOOOO. That stupid |\|_|()() go cope our CME period. LIke wtf man. So pek chek. Come up with all sorts of reasons why we should have bio. So stupid man. Spoil our mood and day. But then PE was fun. WE WON! WE WON! MAWHAHAHAHA!!! Felina and me were the main people who did the scoring though. The stress man! Cause the stupid post had to be the same direction where the sun is. DAMN HARD TO SHOOT SIA. DX Then later merge with the other 3/4 of the girls to play. Managed to draw. =]

ZOMIGOSH WEI LI'S ACTUALLY USEFUL. FOR ONCE. D: Haha no lar kidding lar. Thought having a retard in our team to our disadvantage, actually you not bad wor. =P Haha. [btw "retard" is self-named. She calls herself that. xD Happily + Willingly. So cute hor? XD]

GOOD NEWS PEEPS! MDM LYDIANA IS PREGNANT. =] Har har. Not bad lar. Then break loh.. Natasha change so damn slow today. Eat my time. <_< geog =" free">D

Then went to White Sands... After that went home liao loh.. Nothing much. Haha.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
TWS says that he wants to cosplay Lacus. Wtf. o_o You sure bo?

2006-07-16T07:49:00.000-07:00

Wa so much shit happened sia. -haiz-

-Saturday-
HSC SCHOOL CARNIVAL!! Haha. It started out SOOO boring! The parade sux like shit. No coordination, the commander's commanding skills also not impressive. Haix. Then Mr Ng came. Zomigosh!!! Teh lurve!! MR NG WE LOVE AND MISS YOU!!! Mr Ng > Mr Gng. YEAH!! >)

Then we saw the aeroplanes. Ahaha, so cute sia! But the sound was of that of a mosquito's. =X MR YAP YOU ROCK SIA. <3>

Carnival was ok. Best was the dunking machine!! Haha. Let's see. Mr Tan, Mr Benson Tay, Mr Gng [in school PE shirt and uniform shorts!! XDDD], Mr Raj and Mr Preston Tay went on it. The rest all students. Damn fun sia! <3

Then the games still ok lar. Won some stuff home. The lurve. =3 Met Luel and her friends, said hi. Then went to meet Stellar and Angela. =D It was sooooo fun. Haha! OHHH!! I still remember the Hip Hop Dance Class that Ms Chai set up. It was fun. I had fun. =)

Then later rest first then went to DG. Reached there at 4.30, 30min earlier. DX So went to DDR loh. Saw Leong DDRing there at first, then I take his spot. Hur hur hur. Then Ray play.. Then Taku came along. Said hi then run liao...... So I played with Ray.

Was sitting outside after Elmo was done with Time Crisis 4 when - guess what? - I MET ANGELA AGAIN!!! <3>

Then went to watch Pirates of the Carribean. AWESOME MOVIE! <3>

Lots of shit happened, I dont' wanna elaborate.

-Sunday-
Today went to visit my ah ma. She better liao la I presume. Quite boring at first cause didn't understand what she saying, I don't understand hokkien remember? =X Then Jin Long came. Then not bad, quite fun le. So long no talk to him liao. <3>__<

After that went home loh. Reviewed some freaky stuff and in the end spooked myself out. DX But then it's ok. The dreams still bug me though. *IM me for more details if you're interested*

And apparently my mom still thinks I'm some loose woman who sleeps around. =/ Which still pisses me off. =/

Alex asked me to go pei him chit chat on Tues, but then he didn't state where and when leh. Lol. See how bah. =]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
DEAD END on heavy is DAMN tiring. DX

2006-07-14T07:13:00.000-07:00

Today was quite slack. =] Yayness, the love. Today was funnn. And awesome!

Then went to the arcade. To meet tws. Yayness! FINALLY seeing the DDR machine again. ;_; He was with his friend, and in the end pang seh me halfway without telling me. ._.; Oh well.

Later went to join them loh.. Then supposed to meet Zeph de but then she cannot make it. Haiz. Then went down to arcade, met Alex. =] Tws came back down again to pei me DDR. Yayness! <3>

My ah ma just got into hospital today.. Apparently 1 of her arteries is completely blocked, another is 50% blocked. She fainted after consuming her lunch. Interesting.. I hope she gets well. I couldn't visit her today cause

[1] I had credits on DDR machine, by the time finish liao it was damn late
[2] My parents want me go home

Oh well. =( Btw thanks Alex for wanting to help. =D

Tomorrow's the carnival, and Jesuke's birthday!! Happy birthday Jesuke. =D

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
Btw I passed DEAD END on heavy and got a C. Hur hur hur.

2006-07-14T00:05:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Cherry.

7 random facts about me:
1. I'm VERY short. Haha. *cough-midget-cough*
2. I LURVE DDR. It's teh love. It's awesome I tell you!
3. Nekos are love! So are rabbits! And hamsters! And and and [bg=in other words she's an animal lover]
4. Songwriting is the way I express myself to the world. My emotions, life etc. If you can comprehend.
5. Music soothes me. Regardless of how mad/sad I am. I'm a music child. =/
6. Punk and goth draws to me *_*
7. I never leave home without eyeliner and foundation. Unless it's a random shit I need to do at home. Or tuition. ._.;

7 things that scare me:
- Not in order -
1. Having to face utter fucktards and other shitty stuff
2. Lots of homework! Argh. Teh horror!
3. People who don't know the actual facts but go about saying random shti about it instead and insisting that it's true. ._.;
4. Insects?
5. Not being able to be myself
6. Heights. Yes, trying to overcome it. Not quite there yet.
7. Darkness/shade. It gives me hallucinations, or I start seeing things

7 random music at the moment:
1. Ice and Snow - D.N. Angel
2. DEAD END - DDR
3. Parade - Chaba
4. Yellow Moon - Akeboshi
5. 1000 no kotoba - Koda Kumi
6. Suteki Da Ne - Rikki
7. Shokubeni - Dir en Grey

7 things I say the most:
1. ...
2. ...wtf?
3. anything
4. Huh?/Sorry?
5. Ehh.
6. Omigoshhh!/Omigoddd!
7. Haha. I need to be less lame. ._.;

7 people to do this:
1] Ray?
2] Ziqi
3] Lampyyyyyyy XD
4] Jen =3
5] Taku?
6] MUFFIN!
7] Eh. Jen?

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-13T07:17:00.000-07:00

Hur hur hur. Yesterday forgot to blog. =X Haha. So erm like ya.

- Wednesday -
Waaa, the weather's nice. REALLY nice. No, I'm not being sacarstic. Super wonderful weather. Made me oversleep. Lol. Luckily wasn't late. =] It was ok, wasnt' that stressed. Somehow I was still tired all the way, lol. Wonder why recently I'm always damn tired regardless of how much I sleep. Anyone knows why?

- Thursday-
Still. Ok lar. Nothing much. Damn boring, I was falling asleep again as usual, lol. Still dunno why. Had so much homework. 88 questions of maths to do! Zomigosh. Teh horror! DX

Tomorrow I might be going to the dg arcade with tws to DDR again. Yayness! I miss the DDR machine. ;_; Maybe I'll go drop by and say hi to Angelic and Zeph. I hope Jesuke can tag along! =]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~
My computer's just like love, it's a pain in the ass but it's still wonderful. I love it!

2006-07-11T08:39:00.000-07:00

"My heart's crying, wonder who will see my tears?"

Yeah, kinda getting all emo again. Was telling Woddy about my family background etc cause she asked. Yeah, it's kinda exepcted that my tears naturally flowed. And I was listening to slow songs too. ;_;

I hate this life. I just.. was reminded again how much this sucks. Reminded of how much I wanna run away, reminded of how shitty it is, reminded why I'm drawn to piercings and all that despite my fear for blood. Reminded why I torture my body by pushing it to the limit until I can no longer go on. [Like DDRing until I throw up, until I don't have anymore strength to move? Oo] Shit like that.

I'm pissed off. I'm sad. Mixture of emotions. Like wtf. I wanna run. Pierce. Bleed. Sleep and never wake up ever again. Tempting, yes. But still.

I don't even know why I bother fighting to live on. Seriously. What's my reason to it? Name me my purpose in life..

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

Today was MT O Level Oral. IT'S FINALLY OVERRR!! =D Yayness. Teh lurveeee. <3

We were joking about and all that during the day, it was like any other normal school day. I couldn't do PE today cause I'm sick, but by watching the boys x girls team play together is enough to entertain me greatly - I was already enjoying myself. o.o

Natasha fell down during PE and hurt her leg like fuck, there was SO much blood flowing out. Yeeks. Shilton and Young Sing were pulled out to treat the wound BUT THEY NEVER PUT ANTICEPTIC. WTF? So I had to unbandage everything again, as instructed by Mr Tay, and then washed her wound etc for her, THEN bandage again. -.-; A bit.. lame rite?

1.40pm. Getting ready for O Level MT oral. Wtf man. I wasn't really nervious, I didn't see a point in being nervous. Me and Jessica, Ziqi etc were still joking around. Yes, even in the exam hall. Hur hur hur. Mr Lua was sooo funny! XD No wonder 4E1 and 4E2 lurves him. He is teh lurve. xD So cute + funny, haha! His actions, etc. Kawaii desu! >__<>

He "tested" us by making us say "Wo shi xing jia po ren" [I'm a Singaporean]. Hahaha. Apparently my voice is nice and precise, according to him. ._.; Erm, yeah. Whatever. o__o;

When Jessica went out, I started feeling nervous. As usual, when I'm nervous I like to grab people's hands. [Just like what I did during Cosfest before the performance, lol. ><] But then Chun Peng sitting beside me leh.. =/ Didn't want to grab his hand. >< [Chun Peng don't get wrong idea! Not that you're a bad guy.. But but but.. Ya la. ;__;] Yeah, hey I'm human too. I feel nervous as well though I hardly do. >_<

When I saw the passage was like, wtfing. Haha. Not that it's hard, just that I kept reading wrong words. I shouldn't have worn my contacts today, lol. >_<>_<>__<

Then some bitches that pissed me off, they don't deserve to have a spot in my blog so I not writing about it. ._.;

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-09T07:52:00.000-07:00

Today's Cosfest! Got up damn early. Woke up at li,e, 7am+. And I slept at 2am+ after sewing my costume! ;_; TIREDDDD. Oh well, Ironed it one last time before I headed out. ANU'S SHOE IS BIG. HAD TO PUT PADDING AND STUFF TISSUE TO FIT. O.O

Then had to rush to Downtown East. I get to see my school again, yayness. -.-;

Went to Mac to meet Cherry, Daisuke and Kudo[who was late, I'll elaborate]. Tari, Boon and Angela left without informing Kudo and made him wait 45min for them. When he called, they told him that they're at the chalet already. I mean like wtf? Poor Kudo had to come over himself.

WE did our make up at Mac. Weird rite? Haha. I'm still not used to having those girly-girly kinda make up. ARGH. So so so... Nevermind. Saw Jesuke. THE LURVE! *points to hair*

Then Cosfest was.. still... Can say ok, but not mostly. It was kinda a shitty experience. SO much for first-timer experience. =/ Was actually pretty ticked off.

Then performance time.. Like shit, lol. Me and Kudo didn't have a single clue what they were doing. xD Had a shocker to - I HAD TO SING ON STAGE CAUSE NO SONG. WTF. O.O I hope it turned out ok. ;_;

Then later went to eat loh..

ANd then I saw our dear WC in the finals. AND SHE WON. LIKE WTF. I'm DAMN pissed off. SHe DOES NOT deserve to win ok. After all that shit she did. I'm still pissed off.

But now I have to chiong my homework. DX Jya!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

Yayness. Today is love.

First up, school. We have a new time table, WTF man. T_T >( But oh well, not much changes. =X YAY! PE IS ON TUESDAY! NO MORE HOT SUNNY WEDNESDAY PES! <3

Overall, school was fun. It was nice, funny [though less humour, Chance wasn't in school today. T_T]. Quite relaxed. =] We had our extra bio lesson, it was ok as well. =D

And so I came home and then rushed to go to Outram, but realized that I still haven't topped up my ez link card, so I took the bus instead [I have bus concession, free bus rides. Hur hur.] to Douby Ghout, cause the journy for that itself already took 1hour+. I almost got lost on the bus, lol. Didnt' know where I was. DX Was on the phone with Kagari when I realized that my stop was here. =D Yes, I was supposed to meet Kagari, who later phoned me last minute to call it off.

So down I went to the arcade to DDR. Ray, Virusz etc were there. Yayness. DDRed one round with Ray first before he gave me his test. Waa stress man! Cannot hold bar. ;__; He's evil I tell you. EVIL! T_T Oh well. I had fun. DDRed from 5+ to 7+. It's utter madness I tell you! I was sweating so much, my hair was matted with so much sweat that it looked as if I just came out of a shower. Lol. [Not that much lar, but around there] Saw Taku and Kula [yes, she still somehow pisses me off, but I guess I've developed a tolerance to her from the forums. DOESN'T MEAN THAT I'M OK WITH HER OK? >_>]. Then met Helena also. Wanted to go say hi to Kula, then dropped the idea. Said hi to Helena instead. Hur hur hur. They were going to some Sumairu party. Oh well. I'm not going. Haha. >.O;

Went for dinner... I was hungry, but I can't eat. Don't feel like eating either. I don't know why, everytime I eat something I'll feel like throwing up. And when I talk I'll feel as if I'm going to cough. And when I cough, it's as if I'm going to barf. Can someone tell me what's wrong with me? DX

In the end ate a bit only, then went to buy some green tea.I almost puked after drinking it and NO, I did NOT DDR at all after eating. Get what I mean? -hmmm- Wonder what's wrong with me. T_T

Then went home loh. Studying for my SS paper tomorrow. Must jia you! =]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-06T07:27:00.000-07:00

Today was a lot of fun. Full of laughter. In school that is, it's never happy at home.

First up, Chinese. We were studying like mad for our biology test later [which we later found out from Mr Njoo himself that it was postponed to next week]. DX But the 2 periods was well spent. =] No regrets.

Then it was Mr Njoo's lesson. We talked cock. Haha. But we did revise respiration. Yes, and now it isn't that hard anymore [cause he says that people say Respiration is a hard topic]. Then.. RECESS! =D Recess is teh lurve.

Anyway after that, it was Physics. We had some stupid shit in the hall though, so we wasted quite a lot of time. Didn't pay attention much but at least I understood the lesson. =D DAIYAN AND ANWARI ARE DISTRACTING. THEY MAKE ME LAUGH. ><>

Then it was chemistry. Daiyan and Anwari weren't paying attention but at least I was quite focused for this lesson. =D Yayness.

Then it was followed by ENGLISH! Da-da-da-daaaaaaaa! XD It was more relaxed, and we really appreciated it. The majority of the class was worn out today. And yes, it would be a long day as well. It has been tiring thus far. xD We talked lots of cock. Like Anwari and his mass orgies. Or him and his "get down on me, bitch!" thing that he wrote on this paper. Haha. Or maybe Daiyan's "Lick my balls, dammit!" that he wrote on his textbook. xD It was just super lame AND stupid. Then the class went on to talk about the world cup. DON'T REMIND ME OF IT LAR, GERMANY LOST. >_>

Then lunch break. Yayness! Half the day's gone. Food is lurve.

Humanities after that. IT WAS UBER RELAX TIME!!! We were talking cock, practically 9/10 of the class weren't paying attention. Haha. Chance and gang were cracking jokes all throughout the lesson and it's kinda.. Weird how they laugh at everything. Haha. Daiyan, Anwari etc were talking cock, as per normal. I spent the whole of Geography writing a song, which I entitled Departure. It was inspired from Hoshi no Tobira. I'm not that happy with the results, but oh well. My skills have gone rusty anyway.

After that it was Maths. =D Quite.. OK lar. Nothing much to say.

Then it was Social Studies extra lesson. YESSS! LAST PERIOD!!!! Yayness. Well it went quite well. The pics kinda made me wanna cry though. ;_; It was so sad! Seeing people ending up like that. It's just.. sad.

Oh well, then school's over. FINALLY. YAYNESS. Went home and rot. Haha. It's been a tiring week, with so much homework, 2 tests [though only 1 actually took place] which tested BIG chapters, and all that. Finally, I can rest. DX I used the com for some logistic stuff [as usual], posted my song, rated others' siggies and then went to hit the sack. The sleep was awesome. Obviously, since I was missing out on it.

Well then later I got pretty ticked off. Cause both my sis and I were sick, but mom only kept bugging ME to get up. Which annoyed me so badly. And I was absolutely angry at myself even worse, cause I can't vent my anger on anything. So yeah. You'll see me frowning like a fuckass shit at my mom and giving them the damn bu suang look. Cause I was mad to the point where I wanted to cry.. AND YOU DESERVE IT YOU FUCKASS SHIT. >(

Oh well. Then talked to Nic and some people people like Witch Cat, Rai [yayness! You're talking to me again =D] etc. It kinda cheered me up. Together with the music I have on the com. MUSIC! What's life without it. Ever since young, my life has been revolving around music. I guess it kinda explains why I'm so obessed with music, to the point where it's my ambition to be in the music scene. And I still hope that I get the chance to.

Thankies to Nic for making me 2 new blog skins! =D Thankies also to Takuya again for helping me with my Physics.

Here's a random shit before I post the song. xD

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Me: I read this on a forum: According to urban legend, there is a Big Foot living in one of Singapore's rainforests.
Nic: wtf?
Me: Maybe it's just someone with a huge shoe size. Like Ronald Macdonald. I mean, seirously. Just look at those shoes!!
Nic: Zomigoshwtf? Now we know who Ronald Macdonald really is! D:
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Did you know that Lipton Tea's line is actually "gtg"? It says "Good Things Grow", which in short is "gtg". So next time we can be, like, "Hey, I want to have some of that gtg tea" or "Hey I gtg for some gtg."
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Q: 3 worms were walking in a straight line. The fastest snail said "There are 2 worms behind me." The slowest snail said "There are 2 worms in front of me". However, the snail in the middle said that there's no worms around it at all. Why?

A: The snail is lying.
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Q: A pencil case has a ballpoint pen, a 2B pencil and a mechanical pencil. Let's just pretend that the ballpoint pen gets pregnant. Who's at fault?

A: The 2B pencil. Because he didn't use rubber.
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Ziqi: green tea is laughing tea. Because everytime Felina drinks it, she laughs.

My opinion: I won't say that it makes me laugh, like it does to Felina. However, green tea makes me hyper, and this can be said for Joyce as well. Haha. There's some secret ingredient in green tea I tell you. ~_~
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Mrs Dahyan: "Some farmers grow eggs to feed their families".

Still don't get it? You can't grow eggs. Her being a Geography, she should know better.
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My sore throat is getting better. Yayness. And I'm currently grooving to FF music as usual. Haha. Fragments of Memories [ochestra version] is really soothing yet lively at the same time. Give that song a shot if you're bored. =]

Anyway here's the song that I wrote today during Geography lesson. I had the image in my mind, someone leaving his/her loved one. I wanted to tell a story about this person who had seen that precious someone go, and illustrate the emptiness, loneliness and sadness. Oh well, I'm not that satisfied. But what the hell, haha. My skills are deproving. AhhhH! >_<

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Song: Departure
Written by: Nazhuka Mizhuki [me. duh X_x]
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The world has past me by
There's no one here
My Footprints on the sand
Died red by blood
Go back home my dear
Grant me my last wish
As I turn my back on you
Loneliness fills me

My heart's crying
Wonder who see hear my tears?
The heart that's yearning
For a-cceptance and peace
A bloodstained hand
Turns the pages of fate
For a better future
To greet me again
Tomorrow~
The end is here..

As I'm waiting to leave
No one greets me
I scanned my surroundings
For one last time
I"m leaving for you
This is the choice I made
As I turn to leave this place
My tears of sorrow fall..

My heart's crying
Wonder who see hear my tears?
The heart that's yearning
For a-cceptance and peace
A bloodstained hand
Turns the pages of fate
For a better future
To greet me again
Tomorrow~
The end is here..

I'm taking my leave
And if I don't
Ever come back again
Remember me, Remember me
My history~

My heart's crying
Wonder who see hear my tears?
The heart that's yearning
For a-cceptance and peace
A bloodstained hand
Turns the pages of fate
For a better future
To greet me again
Tomorrow~
The end is here..

My heart's crying
Wonder who will see my tears?
I'm leaving for you love
It's the choice I have made
My bloodstained hand
Reaches out and grasps tightly
The future you gave me
So that I'll live it
Tomorrow~
The end is here..
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Comments are welcomed.

Nazhuka, signing out.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-05T06:41:00.000-07:00

Haha. Yesterday and today was.. Fun. In school, that is. We talked cocked and did stupid stuff. Haha. Weird stuff happened too, like my notebook incident, but whatever.

Today was ant invasion!! DX There were ANTS swarming the walls. yesterday had ants too, but not as much. Chance used his lighter to kill the ants, haha. Lame shit, but oh well.

PE Was.. ok. Nothing special. But we played basketball. YAY. Basketball is teh lurve. But I think I hurt my left leg during PE or something. Now it hurts like fuck.

Then went on with lessons..

That's about it. X_X I'm going to sleep soon after I finish my homework and studying for my bio test. I'm sick, and somehow I'm feeling tired all the time. Wonder why.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-03T08:50:00.000-07:00

GAH. Dammit. This is getting on my nerves. And all last minute too.

1] Pairing and Group competition shit. I can only join one, apparently. I want the group more, we had so much fun together.. I don't want to leave just like that, etc. Besides, we put in so much hard work, and I don't like the idea of backing out last minute anyway. But Witch Cat seems determined to go for the Pairing. Argh. This is so annoying.

But I'm sorry Witch Cat. I choose the Group Competition. Because I'm much more committed to it, and I'm attached to the group currently. We've spent so much time together, I don't want it to go down the drain and all that. Hope you understand.

2] My freaking sister had to go out for the whole night. And now I'm stuck with rushing for my homework. AND I HAVENT' DONE MY HOMEWORK YET. STUPID LARRRR. Need chiong liao.

3] Ok. Tihs is the one thing that pissed me off the most. SOMEONE somehow gained access to MY FORUM, and had special access to THE PRIVATE SECTION without my consent, and me knowing it. And there, he/she/it happily reads all the confidential stuff when he/she/it has no fucking business in it. AT ALL.

And that SOMEONE expects people to be really greatful and all that shit to her all the time. AND I don't see what's wrong when all I said was "oh, you mean he/she/it wants to be a teacher arh?". AND I GET A SACARSTIC REMARK FROM THAT. LIKE WTF IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM MAN? Liddat only not happy. What about me taking EVERY FUCKING WORD YOU SAY AS AN INSULT? You'd love it to bits won't you?

Also, the prices is like, as Cherry said, watching the stock market. It starts with a certain price. Then shoots up to a price so high you just drop your jaws in shock. Then it drops again, and the cycle goes on. It's like it depends on his/her/its mood or something. It's freaky AND annoying. And not reliable as well. DEFINATELY not reliable. NOR honest.

And that fucktard bashed Cherry. Over a highly overcharged wig. And just because Cherry commented about how it's so expensive. And then that fucking chao na bei chee bye had to bitch like no one's business ON MY PRIVATE BOARD YOU FUCKING LOSER and act all childish. It pisses me off SO BADLY. Like what the fuck is your problem man. It's MY BOARD. If you aren't happy with it then LEAVE. Besides, you were never welcomed anyway. You INTRUDED into it. No excuses whatsoever, because you went into the private board without us knowing, and reading through all the private and confidential stuff.

Claim that Cherry's a bitch because she doesn't dare say stuff in your face? HELLO.

You signed out on her. And you can still go "What's wrong with signing out?"
You yourself spoke in CHINESE deliberately because you know that Cherry doesn't understand Chinese. And you call this actually being different + better than Cherry? I'm so so sorry. You better think again you fucktard. It doesn't make you better. It makes you worse off. AND shows how horribly demented your mind is because you're contradicting yourself you fucking fatass.

Oh, speaking of fatass. He/she/it called Cherry fat. Well, I therefore hereby conclude that that fucktard is obese. =X Without regrets. Hur hur hur. Stupid fatass. You're like, at least twice my size, and at least 1 1/2 the size of my friend. Still talk so much. You freaking loser. Haha. =X Free soft toy. DX XDDDD

Oh! Back to the point of not being able to say stuff to your face. My dear arh, do you still remember that YOU BASHED ME ON YOUR FUCKING LJ? WITHOUT ME KNOWING IT CAUSE YOU KNOW I DON'T HAVE YOUR FUCKASS LINK? Yeah. So what do you call THAT? Eh eh eh?

We gave you so many chances, you destroy it all. Now what the fuck do you want us to do? I don't particularly flare up this badly over some fucking idiots, but you really pushed me to the limit. And yes, I know it's not only me and my friend. The whole freaking team is involved, directly or indirectly. And I hate it. Because YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MADE SUCH A HUGE DIN OVER A FUCKING PETTY MATTER. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU MAN? CAN YOU GROW UP? WORKING LIAO. STILL MINDSET OF A CHILD. WHAT THE FUCKKKK?

Hey, if you want to accuse me of over-reacting, by all means go ahead. Because I have the right to.

It's my freaking board
You intruded into the confidential section without our consent, and read the data happily
You insulted my friend
You put my friend into such a difficult position
You made falsely accused my friend of things

See? You're a fucktard, period. ._.; No screw it. You're a fat fucktard. Nah, you're an obesed fucktard, haha. But just because you're an obesed stupid fucktard doesn't mean that the rest of us are too. We won't stoop down to your level of sheer stupidity and ignorance because it degrades us. TOTALLY. DX Our brain cells will be so damaged that it'll NEVER be restored. ;___; And then we'll fail all our exams, and ever have proper jobs blah blah blah. Yeah, THAT bad. [ok I sound so bad ><] But really, whatever lar. Complain like some old lao ah ma liddat. Haiyo. You sian you now not old enough izzit? Want act older huh? =.=;

Haha omg I'm actually getting a kick out of this. >_<>.O;

Anyway you better not do anything to sabo the GSD team you fucking bitch. Or I'll personally make sure that you regret it. Big time. And so will some my friends. I think I'm still yet to show my nasty side to my outside friends. Would you like to gain the honour of being the first to see it?

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-02T20:32:00.000-07:00

Haha a bit sian so took a few quizzes..

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Haha see see not that many rite? =P Anyway just now went to Chinatown to go shopping with Muffin for cosfest stuff. Then went arcade!! I GOT A C FOR TSUGARU. YAYZOMIGOSHWTFFFFF. LAST TIME GOT D. D: Yay. Haha. ._.; Passed once out of 3 times, haha, nothing much to be glad about. Anyway met Ziru and Elmo by accident at the arcade. DX Nah, actually met a lot of ppl by accident there. xD Then later come home loh. Liddat only. Later got dental, and I need to chiong my homework. >.O

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-07-02T08:32:00.000-07:00

Haha. Posting for a few days ya?

-Saturday-
Today morning got mock exam.. So stupid sia. Don't feel like goingggg. T__T WORLD CUP! YES!!! GERMANY WON!!! ZOMIGOSH YAYYYYY!!! Though I also support Argentina lar, but hor... =X I support Germany more la. >_<>

Then Maths exam.. Damn stupid sia. Hard, but the rest say easy.. wtf. Die liao lar, liddat. T_T

Later had to chiong to go for group meeting cause damn late liao.. Ended up reach there at 2+. Was the least person to reach, and then Tari etc had to leave immediately after I came. T_T Oh well, at least I met Ouran team and Witch Cat!! =] We did the props and then sat there and talked cock, haha. Then went to meet Esther at dg arcade. She was lateeeee! Super freaking late. Haha. DDRed with Emi and Angelic. =] Then later.. Got take Angelic's spot in DDR while she dancing with Ray lar.. >_<> Then met Alex. Yup, still remember him. DDRed with Taku and Ray before. =] DDRed with him for a few rounds. Passed some heavy songs [not all while I was DDRing with Alex lar]:

Speed x1.5:

Candy Heart
Candy Star UNLIMITED
Cow Girl
Holic
Nori Nori Nori

Speed x2

Tsugaru

Got other songs but forgot what le. >.O; Yay, haha. So happy. Then later met Ziru and the rest. Had fun at dinner! XD Then go home loh, cause had to reach home early, Sunday going out again mah.

-Sunday-

Went to Taku's house cause he teaching me Physics. All the way at Queenstown. T___T So farrrrrrrrr sia. Haha. Changed my dental so that I could reach early, he had to leave at 2pm ma. In the end reached there at about 11.30am cause the train was a total loser and made me reach about 10min later. =(

Then ok lar, at least can understand the topics better. =] The 10-year-series also can do more questions le. =D Thanks Taku!! =D

Then went to dg arcade, cause not meeting Muffin and Ziru le.. T_T Didn't meet any of my friends there. Sad sia. =( So DDRed one round before going off. Underperforming by one grade sia! In the end Tsugar from pass drop until fail. HAIZ. T_T Sad sad sad.

Then got pretty pissed off going out with my parents.. Don't want to talk about it. >_>

Then later got pissed off with Natasha. Quite a long story and I lazy type it out. Ehehehehe. *Sweatdrops*

Anyway ENGLAND AND BRAZIL LOST! LIKE ZOMIGOSHWTF???? O___O;;; Oh well. GO GERMANY! JIA YOU!!! =D

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-29T19:39:00.000-07:00

Hur hur hur. Posting while I in school. Haha. In com lab relaxing. Ahhh~ This is teh heaven, this is love! <3

Yes, I'm currently grooving to FFVIII music, as usual! =3 I love the music from FFVIII.

Haha, was thinking back about yesterday's DDR. Haiz, I underperforming liao lar. Getting one grade lower. Haiz. So sian! Feel like going to DDR later. T--T Anyway today release early mahhhh. 12.30pm can go le. Yay! =3

Muffin asked me to accompany her to get her stuff for Cosfest. I don't mind, but it's on a sat, I have my meetings + mock exams! T_T Well, I"ll see how. If today can mah? Oo;

Haha, I got this idea for a photoshoot. Themed "Devil and Angel", it will be a photoshoot with angel-like people, and goths. SO it'd be like.. the two contradicting each other. =]

People who are interested:

Angelic
Jesuke
Fluffy
Kelton [Angel =3]
Muffin [Angel =3]
Vivian
Muah! [me = goth >D]
Cruxification
Ash [photographer =D]

Yay! I think it's going to be cool AND awesome. <3>

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

Grooving to Canon Rock, Marcus is playing it. Rock on! B)

2006-06-29T08:54:00.000-07:00

Haha. Today nothing much lar.. Very tired so brief update before I go zzz liao.

Today finished all my homework. Haha, miracle rite? Hur hur hur. Usually leave some undone. =D FINALLY did my SS homework. Hur hur hur.

Anyway later went to dg to look for Angelic. =] She buying carnival coupons. yay! =D Then went arcade play one round of DDR... Then went to the lan shop to play kongkongonline. Hahaha! I'm in love with that game. So cute sia! >_<>_<

Haha, Jesuke also got cut on thumb. Haha. Oo; Nothing much le. Haha.. OHH! Hahaha. I smsed Angelic this lame message, then she forward it to Ray.. Then Ray forward to me. haha. So stupid. I thought he sent me a message that I sent him. Hahaha.!

Oh ya, now school reopen le, I won't be updating as much. =( Not like people actually care, no one reads this, I just blog when I feel like it. >> So comforting horrrr.

Jya!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-28T06:55:00.000-07:00

Wahhh. What a day today, lol.

Forgot to bring oral. Oh no, FUCK! @_@ I need to do oral homework as well. ANYWAY, back to the point. Today's english was quite ok. PE was damn fun. xD Especially the ending part when we played with the guys. =] Chun Peng rocks. Wahaha. Love ya. <3>

Then chinese was ok... Wasn't paying attention much though. Then POA.. wa super sian man. But at least can understand. Then Maths. Haha. Ok-ok nia.

Then SCHOOL FINISH! Yay. Went home and changed, then went to Chinatown to help Cherry look for a red wig. I MET JESUKE AT THE BUS STOPPPP!! XDDDDD Super coincidental. Didn't expect it at all. Hur hur hur. Then we took the train together. =] She's going to meet her friend to do some shopping, and then catch a movie. =] Anyway, about the wig.. Unfortunately don't have. =( I bought a black glove though. Going to edit it next time when my hands heal. =D

Then went to PC find Angelic. Haha. Talked cock there for damn long sia. Talked to some of her collegues as well. They're nice people! =] Met Leong there also. Played Guitar Freaks later. Grades.. Still ok lar. Then Paraed. Ok lar, got improve. DDR. AWESOMENESS! <3>

So I did Holic[heavy] on speed x1.5, and I managed to get a C. I'm still unable to catch the beginning though. Haiz. Then I did Healing Vision Angelic Mix[standard]on speed x2 and got a B. =] Lastly tried Paranoia[standard] and got a B. Wheee! =3 This is teh LLLUUURRRVVVEEEEEE. *hearts*

Ok ok, enough with the good news. Now the baaaaeeeddddd[bad] news. My legs almost recovered liao, but now it's hurting like a bitch again ! T__T Nuuuooo. Looks like I need to impose the ban again. Haha. Oh wait, I never did impose it. xD Hur hur. Sorry. AND MY NAIL BROKE. WTF. Yeah. There was soooo much blood! Omg, that was freaky. T_T And it hurt like a bitch too. Na bei, kept it to almost 2cm and then break, very heartbreaking one lehhhhh. SO xin suan.. Bek chek! >( Haha. Anyway so sad sia, now all the nails gone. T__T Need to grow back again. Wahhh. ;__;

Anyway I go do hw liao, not enough time le. Jya!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-26T06:56:00.000-07:00

Gahaha. Now not feeling well, so I'll just do a rough update on my blog.

Today first day of school, sian arh. Didn't feel like going to school sia. T_T Anyway lucky I did my duty, if not my nails will be chopped off. Too long, haha. xD

Some funny random shit took place:

Ms Teo: How come there's a string a of balls? [when actually it's a ball of string XD]
^ She say wrongly lar

Young Sing: *Hands near his *ahem* * My legs feel so tired sia.

Haha. Anyway bio was alright lar.. Haha? Oo; Tio scolding, wtf. But then later was alright. =]

Jean aka Elie + Usagi want to recommend me for Kohaku next year. Wtfffffffff? DDDDDDDD:

Now I go zzz liao, not feeling well. Haha. ._.;

- Yes, the urge to DDR is still there, but.. Cannot. T_T -

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-25T06:25:00.000-07:00

ARGH. I'm SO fucking angry.

I ate my medication yesterday for my allergy, and that medication makes me sleepy. So obviously today I'll sleep like fuck right? My parents didn't let me rest. Yes, not even after I completed my homework. But yet THEY slept like fucking pigs, like no one's business. Like what the fuck.

Then later they said they wanted to go to Parkway Parade, still can call and rush me, ask me hurry up. But they themselves are late, na bei. I still rushed home to get my jacket [cause PP is cold ma], and THEY themselves took their own sweet time. Like wtf.

Then dunno why somehow ended up at Paya Lebar instead. Wtf. They say that they picking my sis up from here, fine. I ok with it. Then leh? "Eh, Winnie not here yet, we eat here first. Now late le, seven plus. Later than go Parkway". Wtf. This point of time I was aready damn pissed off le. They complain seven plus late, won't have much space, blah blah blah. Think later on will have arh? Na bei. Fucking idiots can't think one leh. Like what the hell. That ticked me of SOOOOO bad. As if later they will want to go to Parkway liddat. Idiots also can tell, no need to know them for 16 years + to know that loh.

Then Winnie was late, wtf. From orchard come down here at most 10min+ only, you dare say take so long arh. You can trick my parents but not me ok. >>;

Then later went to the Food Court to eat [I was still damn fucking angry]. I angry until don't want eat sia. >> Then my father come kao bei me. Na bei. Fine. So I decided to force myself to eat. I went to buy chicken rice [Get Japanese not worth it lar, wait cannot finish. Damn ex leh]. Then I went back to where the fucktards chose to sit. My mom was, like, "Huh? You didn't order Japanese food arh?" Na bei. Does chicken rice look like Japanese rice to you? You fucking idiot. No brain one arh, or too small? Or maybe you dunno how to use it? Chee bye.

I was so pissed off at that time, I actually took a tissue and started ripping it. X_x; But I was still damn pissed off. I SO wanted to just leave, go to dg arcade and DDRed until I can't take it anymore. SOOO tempted.

Then later they said "Don't go Parkway lar, now what time already, so late. Finish eating le go walk around here, or else go home." SEE? SEE? What did I tell you? As if they will go later liddat. I knew it. Any idiots would have known it. Fucking fucking fuckers. Na bei. So I was forced to walk around This Fashion. As if anything there would actually interest me. The things there suck like fuck [no offence], they ruin the Lolita image, and their "punk" stuff there isn't so "punk" afterall. It kinda pissed me off even more.

Then later go home. Wtf man. The second the car parked, I just got out and walked to the lift, not giving a fucking shit about the rest. Then they also bo brain de. See there's this guy carrying so many buckets etc running to the lift, want to catch it. They just close the door in his face. Wtf. Still need me to open the door, then I diaoed my mom for being such a fucktard.

Then come home liao, now only 9+ sia, they come bug me, tell me what go pack my bag etc. Like HELLO. As if I sleep this early de. I SOOO want to go to the dg arcade and DDR myself away.

Yes, DDR myself away. Now I know most of you must be wondering "wtf?" or something like that. Yes. I shall elaborate.

Apparently, my mind wants to DDR to vent my frustration etc, but my body doesn't. My mind can't take the pressure, but it can withstand me taking it out on the DDR machine. But my body can't. My body can withstand me being tormented mentally, but it's breaking down under all that stress I've been giving it on the DDR machine. Yes, I've injured my leg from all that DDRing. To the point that I'm limping now. I'm limping now, cause I've been DDRing so much. Because I'm so fucking stressed/pissed off. So why didn't I revert to my piercings and slashing? Because the pain is only temporary. It lasts for only a while. Pain for DDR lasts longer. So much more longer. Isn't that even better?

I wanted to ban myself from DDRing today, until my leg recovers *refer to previous paragraph*. However, now I'd say that I'll screw that. I'm still going to DDR, regardless of how fucking bad my leg gets.

I know my body cannot take it anymore. I know sooner or later it'll just give way. But so will my brain. So I'm not going to give a bloody damn. I'm going to force myself to DDR, push myself to the limit. Until I cant go on anymore. Yes, that's what I meant by "DDR myself away". When my body reaches its peak and I can no longer do that, THEN I think I'll sort to piercings and slashings. Yes, this is So tempting. I'm actually so pissed off, to the point that I just want to cry and then just start banging things/throwing stuff around. yes, to that point. To THAT point.

Yes, I'm so sorry Ziru, but I think what you said is true. Sooner or later I'll end up at the mental hospital. Because I think I'm seriously starting to lose it. And I seem to be losing it big. BIG.

And it's not that any of you cares anyway. How many of you actually bother reading my fucking blog? =/

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-24T09:01:00.000-07:00

Ahhhh. Today was quite a nice day, cause I was mostly not at home. Hur hur hur. =X

Got up was damn pissed off. BOTH my parents didn't go to work today, like wtf. It ticked me off REAL bad. Don't ask. Didn't let me go out, when it was THEM who said that they support me cosplaying. Like wtf. I have to go for meeting also cannot, support what shit? And I did my fucking biology before that lar, what the hell is your problem? This is MUCH better, compared to the how many fucking years of study I've been through loh. Since WHEN did I did my homework slowly during the holidays, instead of chionging it on the last day? This is my FIRST year doing this, and this is the shit I get? Like wtf. I was late for my meeting BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS LAR. DAMMIT. HAPPY NOW? >>;

Anyway I was late, as I said above. XDDDD But Kudo was the latest. I was damn pissed off at him also. I don't want to elaborate. >_> Skipped lunch, but grabbed some stuff at 7-11 before rushing off to meet Elmo.

Elmo was late!! AHHH!! That bastard. I'm going to strangle him one fine day. T_T Make me miss my lunch. Wuuu~ ;__; Haha. Met Jesuke also. D: Zomigosh shocccckkk. Haha. Didn't expect it maaaaahhhhh. Cannot arh? <_<>

Met quite a few of my friends there. =D I was mostly with Jesuke though. Jesuke, Scha and I were Zambot 3 crazy!!! XDDD Kazuki filmed us doing the Zambot 3 thing, wtf. I hope he deletes it. T_T Haha. The Red Team should have won!! ;___; Haha. But it was fun. Sabotaged Elmo, mawhahahahaha.

Later told cold jokes. Hahahaha. It was damn stupid, I laughed until my cheek muscles ache like hell and my stomach had cramps. Hur hur hur.

Went to the arcade again~!! Haha. Played nothing but Guitar Freaks. This is like.. My 3rd-4th time playing it though. X_x; not that bad performance la.. Wanted to Para and DDR de, no time.. Had to chiong home. Haha. I reached home zhun zhun at 10.50pm, and I told my mom that I'll be back at 10.50pm. Mawhahahaha!

Haiz, lots of shit happening, I'm also kinda pissed off but yet dunno what to do. Haiz. Studies also got problem, school also got problem, home also got problem, friends also got problem, wtf. Is there any aspect in my life that's actually peaceful? -_-; This is soooo shitty.

And I have my own stuff to worry about either, together with my studies. Like wtf. Even a machine breaks down you know. I wouldn't say that I'm as taxed mentally as I was previously, but I'm bound to hit my limit soon. I know it myself. Whenever my parent[s] are home with me, I go nuts, almost literally. [I don't turn into a nut lar dammit. Not that literally]

In school, still ok. Sometimes some fucking shit take place, but whatever.

Friends-wise I also have problems.. Haiz. So sian. Realized that I've never actually been in a circle of friends, when I thought I'm inside... Got stuff don't want fill me in.. Fuck it man. Think I'm going to turn to DDR and torment myself again until I really hit my body limit. I know I'm hitting it le. Today climb stairs only already not much strength, etc. Want to hit the limit is easy.. I'll take some time to recover anyway. Hitting limit damn easy. I can one, confirm. Fuck it lar. I hate this shit.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-23T07:26:00.000-07:00

Yay!! Today was a fun day. =]

Got up at 10+. Overslept again. Haha. xD Me like pig sia. Always oversleeping. Hur hur hur. XDDD But it's ok today to oversleep. Whyyy? Because at night I couldn't sleep. Was lying in bed, but for some bloody reason, I couldn't fall asleep. >_> Wonder why.

Got up and did English. I actually did Physics before I hit the sacks, but from Current Electricty onwards I didn't know how to do them. ;___; So I gave up doing. I also gave up doings E Maths Paper 2 cause it was damn bloody difficult. T_T

Later went to Wei Li's house to do our bio "project". NUUUOOOO, stop thinking dirty you idioits! >_< Actually it's a essay homework.. We had to spilt the load, cause there's a lot to do, that's why maaa... You guys think until where sia. [cold wind blows] OK NOT FUNNY. >> Later went to Macs for lunch/dinner. Met Stellar there. XD Also met Ah Lam, Charmaine, Wen Fong, Zhi Yong etc at Macs. Haha. Then we sat beside each other. They were studying and we were talking cock. Mawhahahaha. xDDD We spent hours at Mac though. ._.; kinda wasted time there. But it was fun! =3

Later left at 5.30pm to go to DG. Met Ray and Angelic there. Whatever happened to those 2 sia. Cold treatment. T_T But I got a C for Dead End, speed x1.5. Yay! But today I underperforming for DDR.. I think it's due to the fact that I've been DDRing quite intently without any proper rest. Everyday [excluding Sunday, Monday + tuesday] I DDRed at least 3 times a day, and in it there's Healing Vision for every game I play. X_x; So yeah, my legs were kinda tired. First song already buay tahan, during the last song for today for my first game my legs almost gave way. X_X;; Underperforming.. Haiz. So bek chek. Can pass become cannot pass.. Those that can pass drop by 1-2 grades sia!!! Sad. But I think I'm really reaching my limit though. Didn't have much strength to even walk.. Standing still also legs damn suan, even now [which is hours after I last DDRed]. Reaching my limit liao.. Haiz. -sighs-

Well I going to rest now, damn tired and I'm currently suffering from a headache. X_x Get well Ray and Angelic! And I do hope that you guys will work things out. =] Nite, minna~!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

Haha. Waaaaaa, wonderful day.

Today overslept larrrr, haha. Wanted to get up at 9.30am to do homework de, in the end got up at 10.30am, haha. Then wanted to do E Maths de, I see the first question already stuck liao, then gave up doing. Hur hur hur. ._.;

Then later went to Pasir Ris to meet Anwari, promised him that will help him sell the coupons for HSC carnival maaaaa. So I took the coupons from him today. =D Wa biang eh. He tell me meet at the MRT station, I was waiting there like siao, didn't see him there. In the end he was standing OUTSIDE the MRT.. Na bei. No wonder we couldn't find each other. xDDDD

Then later went to Doubhy Ghout arcade, supposed to meet Jesuke and Muffin. Hur hur. Met Leong, Angelic, Steven and Ray there. xD Muffin went MIA. o__o;;; Only to find her like, 2 hours later. ._.;

Haha. It was fun though. Got a B for Healing Vision Angelic Mix, speed x 1.5 + End of the Century, speed x 1.5, waaaa! SO happy sia. <3>

I want to try Dead End and Paranomia!!! T__T

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

Posting for yesterday. Haha, it was quite a nice day. =]

Did my homework for the whole morning. Tiring sia. I completed my POA homework, and 1/2 of my maths homework. Yay~! =] Now I'm left with English, Bio and Physics. T_T

After that went to nap for a while, got up at 2. DX Gobbled down some snacks and then rushed to meet Sochii, cause I'm buying the Lacus Chara Fortune from her. =X Hur hur. Thought that she's a guy. SORRY! >_<;

Finish liao, went to the DG arcade. First time see Leong wear so casual sia. Lol. xD DDred, like, 3-4 rounds. There's this little girl who kept bugging me to DDR with her. When I see her play Dance Mania I also scared sia, she anyhow jump on the censors de. O.o Hur hur, I finished the game as quickly as I could and then ran to PS for a while. When I got back there she wasn't there anymore. xD

Met Elmo at the arcade. D8 Didn't expect that, haha. He stayed until 5pm. I finally passed Healing Vision [angelic mix]!!! Yay!!! Got a C. But speed = x1.5 Hur hur. That song must really be last song, when I finished I had close to zero strength to stand sia. X_x went hugging the wall. Haha. But just glad that I passed. Maybe is tyco de. Hmm. *Thinks*

Left at 5.30pm for my early dinner, went to Mos Burger to have my dinner. =D I left at 6pm from PS, went to Raffles Place cause got band concert later. I realized that I forgot to bring my map! AHH!! NUUOOO!!! X_x; It was a real test, I was backtracking the path me and Usagi took during the photoshoot. Got lost once, cause went in wrong direction. Haha. xD But luckily found Victoria Concert Hall. Haha. Then later went back to the MRT control station to meet Kenneth and Hakim, then I brought them there, dropping by Mac because Kenneth hungry. xD

The band concert was brilliant! If only they recorded it and sold it. I'll buy it!! *__* Two thumbs up. Well done, HSC Band! =]

Later left Raffles at 10.35. Like wtf, I got home at 11.20pm. T_T Late sia. Hur hur. I popped by 7-11 cause I was hungry. Wanted to buy bread from the bread shop at the Tampines central de, caues the shop still open.. But I see like nothing much le, so I decided not to. Got nothing I want de ma. T_T Sorry, people picky maaaaaa. xD;

Hur hur, that's about it. Pretty pleasant day, I even hardly got to see my parents. Weee! =D

PS: Apparently many people can't recognise me. According to them, I look very different from school. Erm, right, whatever. o_o;

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-20T01:30:00.000-07:00

Haha. Today a bit sian [boring], nothing to do at home so I decided to dress up and take some pictures. xD I was currently addicted to A Sacrifice [the bg music of the blog], and stuck in my head were imagines of this sorceress sitting on the throne in the throne room, awaiting some intruders.. So I decided to "theme" the pics on that? XD; I don't know how to merge pics though. T-T

Clickie 1
Clickie 2

Hur hur. xD Post about the day later.

PS: The lines on my face.. I used eyeliner to draw 'em. =]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-19T07:39:00.000-07:00

Haha! Well thanks to Esther, Nic and some other random people that cheered me up unintentionally. XD Love you guys loads. =]

Thanks to Nic who hosted the new background music!! =] It's A Sacrifice from the game FFVIII. =] Thought that it would suit the layout better. =D

Oh! And I've made a note to keep shots of previous layouts. Sadly, I've lost the Gaara one. Deepest apologies!! >.<;;;

I was browsing through my jewellery box.. There's quite a lot of junk there. xD Was thinking if I should sell them though. *Thinks* Maybe I'll get back to that later. XDDDDDD

Congrats to Takuya in getting 3rd + 4th placing for his YGO competition. =]
Congrats also to Ray for getting his marksman I guess. I still remember why I didn't get mine. Haha. XD It was some lame shit. My bulllets went... Missing? O__O;; haha. Let's not talk about that eh? ^^;

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-19T03:23:00.000-07:00

Ahhh! NUUUUOOOOO!!!! I missed the lot for MAD products. ;___; Oh well. JESUKE! We need to go shopping sometime soon. XD

Gah, I'm kinda pissed off. How come my parents are using MY NAME to sign on for a mobile contract for MY SISTER? Just because she can't qualify for it? Na bei. She JUST got a bloody phone, and now she gets a new plan? She already has TWO phones for goodness sake, and they're giving her one more? What the fuck is wrong with them? And my phone, that's so damn fucking old liao, and a bit spoil liao they still don't want to buy a new phone for me. Na bei. What the fuck? >>; Pissed off. PISSED OFF. >_>

Oh, and they scolded me again for not studying, when I did do my maths and POA. See? They're mentally insane.

I feel like running away. Any takers?

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-18T03:27:00.000-07:00

Ok. I can officially declare that I have proof that I am not able to live with my family members for the full day without me getting mad or going insane literally. Here goes:

1] I couldn't even stand having breakfast together with them. It somehow just pisses me off. One can't eat with her mouth shut, the other can't eat quietly. Like wtf.

2] I went to pack my cupboard cause mom said that it was messy. I left ONE plastic bag there, cause my Lacus costume is in it. When she opened up the cupboard, she was, like, "WHY DIDN'T YOU GO PACK YOUR CUPBOARD? IT'S FILLED WITH PLASTIC BAGS!" Like H-E-L-L-O, I PACKED it, I know what's in it. When I answered "There's only ONE bag there lar," she was like "Don't come and [lar] somemore with me ok. Where's your manners? So rude" blah blah blah. Wtf? >>; So now I'm the one at fault lar? All because of one fucking [lar]. lar lar lar lar lar lar lar lar lar. >>; BITCH.

3] They like to kao bei me so much, if don't have will die izzit? First they said they support me cosplaying. Then yesterday I had to go for a meeting. Na bei, tio scolding. But I wasn't paying attention, I had to find the paper with all the meeting details. When I couldn't find it, I was, like, "AHHH!!! Where's the paper?!?!?! I need it for the meeting!!" to myself. And then they were, like, "Sing. You sing somemore. This shows that you're not interested in your studies". Like wtf? >> Talking = singing? Hello. Then aren't you singing as well, you fucktard? >>

4] They said they allow me to go Laselle to study cause it's my interest. Now leh? "Don't think you are going there ok. Don't think I have the money to send you there. You better aim and get into a poly or your studies end here. You go and work after this." Na bei. Bo cash. Why? All gone to my sister studying university. Chee bye. Can't you fucktards keep to your word? >>

5] Ok, so they complain that I don't study. Today was doing my homework - RIGHTI IN THEIR FACES. And yet they can be, like, "Now when le, still don't study. Wait till you fail your Os then you know." blah blah blah. Like, H-E-L-L-O? I study also cannot. Dont' study also cannot. Go out play also cannot, play at home also cannot. What you want me do? Go heaven or hell arh?

6] Ok, so after lunch I got hungry. After living with me for 16+ years, haven't they fucking realized that I ALWAYS EAT AT 3+ 4+? =.=; And yet they didn't buy anything for me to eat despite knowing that THERE'S NOTHING TO EAT AT HOME. And they complain that I'm too thin. Tsk.

Furthermore, when I asked if there's anything to eat at home, dad was like "Eat bananas. They're energy food." Like wtf? How is that even connected? Energy -> Full? =.=; Bananas aren't even carbohydrates lar. Stupid fucktard.

7] Told my sis that I want to use the com. She was, like, "orh." But still glued her butt to the chair. Only moved away like, 15min later. Wtf?

8] So I decided to take a nap.. The only time where I actually had peace. Na bei, damn hot one leh. She can't have fan due to some rashes, wake up le still don't want move away when she saw me sweating like a pig. Still can sit there happily smsing and playing with her mobile. Na bei.

9] Ok, so when I got up I was still hungry. So I asked if I could cook instant noodles, since I definately won't be full from it. Na bei, like that only already got a scolding. Wtf? So I changed and wanted to go down to buy myself dinner. And I got scolded again. Na bei. What's their problem? They were, like, "Where are you going to again? Always go out, you cannot stay home and study one arh?" Wtf? Do you see me going out in like, damn sui bian clothes? No loh. Not even to the nearest shopping mall. I don't de, unless it's something damn unimportant, like going to the market/dentist, etc. Bunch of twats. When I told them that I was going down to buy dinner kena diao. Wtf. So now I eat also wrong lar?

10] Came back and realized that the com was OFF! Zomgwtf. I had WINDOWS AT THE BOTTOM. AND THEY SWITCHED IT OFF WITHOUT TELLING ME. WTF? Who was that person who IMed me? What did that person say? What if it's regarding school, of the project that I'm supposed to do? Na bei lar. When I switched it on again tio scolding. Wtf lar.

11] My mom was BOILING WATER and put the wire ON TOP OF THE BANANAS. Like wtf? And the wire hot when I touched it. Can they like.. Use their brain? =.=; They want cooked bananas izzit? =.=;

12] All I did was sit at the com and eat my dinner. And I got scolded for it. Say what I not serious in studying. Wtf? So I still have to study when I'm eating?

13] I asked if there's any fruit juice available at home. And dad was, like, 'eat your banana lar." When I didn't even ask him whether there's any frutis at home. Like wtf? Then when my mom mentioned about the yogurt drink in the fridge, he diaoed me. WTf?

14] I just finished showering. The second I came out, I was greeted with scoldings about how I should study my 10 year series and guidebooks. And that I don't study at all. And I was doing my freaking maths all the way before I went to rest! Like wtf. Again, they didn't believe me.

That's only SOME of the reasons why today's a fucked up day.

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On another note, there's a thing I just realized:

yesterday on the way home, I dropped my mobile. Wala, it's now working fine again. Sound + vibration is back. D: Maybe I should drop all spoilt things. Hur hur.

The other time where I really was able to be NOT angry was when I went down to buy dinner.
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Yeah, that's all the nice things that happened to me. And I'm still damn ticked off. >>; By those two fuckass fucktards.

What a nice life huh? Goes to show that I should stay out more. I want to run away and end it all. I hate this. I really do.

PS: What's it with dad and bananas? =.=;

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-17T19:02:00.000-07:00

Hur hur. Hungry, so I'll post really quick before chionging to eat.

-Friday-
Went to watch Garfield with Jesuke. Hur hur, her Drum Mania skills also not bad wor. Is she an arcade person too? D: *Thinks* Garfield was ok, quite cute + funny. XD Then we went to the DG arcade. Was supposed to meet Hana and Ziru there, but both didn't come. T_T Paraed and DDRed there. Hehe. >D Met Taku at the arcade also, DDRed together. Wtf, the machine kept hanging, and we kept getting free games. T_T In the end I DDRed from 5+ to 8+. Utter madness hor? XP By then my leg pain liao..

Then went to Pasir Ris Park for 2E2 class BBQ. Almost got lost finding my way there. Hur hur. Happy birthday Felix and early birthday Joyce! =3 OH! The satays were great. XD

Stayed for a while before leaving cause need to be home before 11pm. Got lost. NA BEI. It scared the shit out of me. Couldn't find my way out of the park, and it being dark cause it's nightfall made things worse. But I saw HDB buildings and a carpark.. Walked towards it and followed the carpark out. The drivers were staring at me as if I was mad. Haha. XD Was lost for 30min. T_T By time reach home already 11.30pm. Got scolding, again they didn't believe me. >_>

- Saturday-

Got a shock when I thought that I got up late. DX But lucky it was an hour earlier. =] Father come kao bei me again when I had to go out. Na bei lar, chee bye. Then later went for meeting. Only 6 showed up. WTF??!?!?!?!?!?!?!111!!1 DX But it was fun, hur hur.

Later went to meet Ziru and gang for pool. Waaa! All the pros playing, so pai seh. X_x But still it was fun. XD

Before that I went DG arcade, met Angeline, Leong and Elie + Ray. DDRed again. Pain sia! X_x;;

Ok, my food is here. I'm going to eat. Jya ne!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-14T17:52:00.000-07:00

Nahaha. Took some quizzes:

You Are 42% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

You Are 43% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're addicted to love.
You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it?
Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships.
Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself!

Are You Addicted to Love?

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind.
People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

You Are 24% Vain

Okay, so you're slightly vain from time to time, but you're not superficial at all.
You are realistic. You know that looks matter. You just try to make them matter less.

How Vain Are You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

He Is More Than a Hookup

You've fallen pretty hard for this guy, which could be a great thing.
But if he's just looking for a hookup, this spells trouble.
If your guy wants something serious, than by all means, step things up.
Otherwise, find someone else who's interested in more than a fling.

Is He Just a Hookup?

^ Zomg. That picture's SO obscene! >_<

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Spontaneous, on a tropical vacation, when he realizes he can't be without you.

What's Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

What Your Black Outfit Means

You're a sophisticated woman with big city taste.
You have a strong creative force - even if you don't wear the boldest clothes.
You tend to intimidate people. But the right guy won't be intimidated by you!

Designer match: Dolce & Gabbana

Signature accessory: Gold framed sunglasses

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

You Are Bad Girl Sexy

Girl, you are nothing but trouble. And that's hot.
You've got the classic bad girl sexiness mojo going on.
And your badass attitude makes men fear you - and crave you.
Don't give into people who say to tone it down. You're perfect as is.

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

^ WTf? =.=;

You Are An Understanding Girlfriend!

You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first
And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide
Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know
He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

^ Nahaha. Quite true I guess. *Tends to keep stuff to myself*

Ok, I didn't take some. I took.. *quite* A lot. Ehehehe. ^^; *sweatdrops*

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-14T04:03:00.000-07:00

Nahahaha. Final block booking for the holidays Is. Finally. OVERRRRRRRRRR!! YES!!!! MAWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA!!! *insert mad laughter here* Had POA today though, that was the shocker. I didn't know and I didn't bring anything for it. DX

Came back and caught up to Ouran High Host Club. Nahahaha. Omigoshhhhhh! I lurveeeeeee the twins!!! They're soooooooo awesomeeeeee. *__*

Bad part. I think I'm falling sick. NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! *fades into background* T_T

Nahaha. Take care wor, Takuya, who's also sick. =] Oh! And jia you for your competition!!! >) OSU!

Congrats to Ray for passing his IPPT I guess. O_o; Ahahaha. But his blog is still funny. xD

Going to have my dinner now, jya!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-13T08:57:00.000-07:00

Nahahaha. Today's chemistry lesson was really fun. Titration! <3>

Later went to get a haircut. I look like a freaking guy now, nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. *fades into background*

=(

Now I am going to chiong homework because I want sleep. Jya ne!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

Gahaha. First Streetfest I ever attended. The weather was pretty shitty, but it was quite fun. =D Was wearing my MAD top and skirt [zomg o_o], together with platforms [<3>

Today's the first time I had sooooo many photographers taking a shot at me at a go. o_o; I have to get used to it I guess.

Miydarre's performance rawks! >_<>

Scha lost her wallet, scared us all. Luckily we found it. =D

DDRed and Para Paraed. xD My feet are hurting like fuckass shit now. X_x;

Had some problems, damn fuck. I don't give a fuck anymore now, I just want to hit the sack and get things over and done with.

Made friends with Angeline from the DG arcade. Been seeing her around, we're finally friends now, yay~! XDDDD She seems like a really nice person. =]

Think this post is REALLY brief? Explaination -> Tired, I'm going to sleep now. Nite!

[PS: Pcy, GO OUT MORE LAR DAMMIT. =.=;;]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

Gahaha. Happy post! XD

Today was flag day.. Xi bei na bei, person at different location never tell us, those who know also never inform the rest of the class. =.=;

Gahaha. Flag day was tiring. SUPER tiring. I didn't manage to get much donations, but at least I did meet up with funny experiences XD :

I was standing in the rain and looking around. Suddenly, this guy popped out of nowhere and said "For standing in the rain, you deserve a coin" and gave me a dollar. I was shocked. XD
The little kids are just so adorable! They run to you, put the cash inside the tin and then happily pulled the sticker. XD There was this instance where the little girl couldn't pull it out. DAMN funny. XDDD
Me = "Excuse me miss, would you like to donate?"
Girl=*Stares at me* "erm, not really" *walks off*
Me = O___O;;
Person who donated at his daughter -> "You have to take the sticker or you'll fall sick"
We went to the washroom for a while. Melissa, Wei Li and I. Melissa and I went out first, Wei Li last. I opened the door,but didn't hold it for her. She tried to use her leg to kick it open, only to slip and fall. XDDDDD DAMN funny. Laughed until I had stomach pain. XDDDD We couldn't walk either, from all that laughing.
Melissa dropped her donation tin can so many times! XD

That's some of the random shit that we came upon. xD

Went out with Muffin, yay! XD Congrats on getting your top and your eyelets. =D DDR WITH ME MUFFIN! DDR WITH MEEEEEEEEEEE. ;____;

Finally got my MAD top from miwitch. Super nice sia. But it made me realize how super blur I am. xDDDDDDD [sorry Muffin for shocking you so horribly almost the whole time I was with you! D:]

I'm kinda unhappy with myself. I'm underperforming for DDR today. My guess is that it's because I'm sleep deprived, rest deprived, I have muscle cramps and my eyes were damn uncomfortable due to the coloured lens. Then again, it's all my fault for making myself in this condition deliberately. I still don't regret doing it, but I just kept asking myself this question: Why am I deliberately hurting myself?

Met Ray, yay! XD Steven was there too. Met Taku and this other.. Guy. *Forgot name >.<;* and Johnny. Didn't talk to them much, I didn't want to either. >_> *refer to previous posts* Want avoid, avoid lar. Still try act nice. Na bei.

Was shocked to see Ray DDRing. D: Still, it was fun. XD I still remember the part where Steven and this other person did DDR together. 2 people for 1 player. Xi bei hao siao sia. XDDDDDD

Went home. FINALLY HAD INSTANT NOODLES! XD Been craving for it. =3

Tomorrow's streetfest. Yay!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-09T04:05:00.000-07:00

Why's my life so sad? I can't take it anymore. Everytime I'm alone by myself, I start crying. I've gone to the extent of going out and making myself so tired [from stuff like DDRing until I can't go on anymore, etc] until I do nothing but hit the sack after I shower when I get home. The thought of cutting myself has once again resurfaced, but I don't want a cut on Streetfest. That's the one and only reason why I didn't do it. And I feel like piercing my ears, but I'm deprived of the cash to do so.

So I try and find people to go out with, so that I won't get all depressed again. If you don't want to talk/hang out with me then just say it straight to my face.. Don't need to go beating about the bush.. like SOMEONE. Will appreciate it a lot. Fine la, if all the care about is the trouble that you caused me, fine la.. I'd just keep lying. Fine lar, fineeee... Don't want to talk to me or hang out just bloody say it out lar. But it's ok. I'll just ignore you, since it's your wish. Bastard. >_>

It's just so fucked up. I'm not allowed to sleep even though I'm so damn fucking tired. But yet when I don't sleep, I get yelled at. Seriously, like what the fucking hell? I can't take it anymore. I really can't. I dont even know why the fuck I'm here. >_>; Friends. What friends? When I'm in need of them, they're off doing something else. Not that I want to be selfish or something, they CAN do their own stuff. They're not obliged to tend to me. But I'm once again obessed with something I'm so damn fucking scared of, and this is one out of the few times where I actually don't want to go home. But no one notices it again.. As usual. Or if they do they just don't fucking care. =/

I don't know. If I'm worse as a person, would my life be better? If it will, I don't mind becoming worse. Seriously. I'm sick and tired of this life. I usually just put on a happy face. The moment I'm alone, I get upset and then I'll start crying again. Yes, even in public. There's something really wrong.. With me? With my so-called "friends"? I don't know. I don't fucking know, so stop asking me. >_>

I can bet all my cash that even if I go missing, no one will actually take notice of it. And it's not like anyone will actually care if I'm there or not. Yes, I'm that insignificant. Am I not? =/ So if I go and never come back, how many will actually remember all the pain, the sorrow, and the "happiness" that I've had, that I've "shared"? Close to nothing, close to no one, if you ask me. I hate this life, hate everything in it. I want to run away, to escape it all. I just want it to fucking end, dammit. >>;

Yes, in case you haven't fucking noticed, I'm shedding tears. This pain, my pain - no one actually cares about it. Nor bother about it. It's not their fault, for neglecting me for their work. But what if you could but you just didn't want it? And make it seem as if you're ignoring me, whether or not you are trying to I don't fucking know, but what's the message that you're trying to convey? I don't know. I hate this. I just do. I just want to fucking go and get things over and done with.

And it's not like any of you guys will care anyway.

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Well on the happy note, Ray's blog keep me giggling. It IS funny, to some extent. But retiring from DDR!! Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ;__; Does that mean that you're giving up teaching it too? Oo;;

Today we had fun in school as well... Ziqi, Jessica, Shilton, Marcus, Young Sing, Anwari, Daiyan, ME! XD We were talking crap in school.

That's about.. All the happy shit that happened to me. What a happy life, eh? >>;

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~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-07T22:16:00.000-07:00

Ranting, "emo" post. If you aren't interested, scroll down. There's happy shit at the bottom.

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Gah. I'm sick and tired of this place, this house, this family, everything. I just hate it. It just seems as if the sole purpose of me being here is to be yelled at, etc. I can't even enjoy myself without having my family members ruining my day for me. It seems as if they'd die if they don't yell at me for a day. It's driving me nuts. All I wanted is a break from all that hectic shedule. And I told them that I'd be home late. I already told them. And they didn't say anything, which I'm assuming that they're fine with it. Yet they yelled at me when I got home late. Like what the fuck? What about what I told you earlier? >>;

IN case you don't know who I'm referring to, it's this bitch in my family what I'm obliged to call "mom". And this other idiot whom I'm obliged to call "dad".

I do believe that life isn't only about studying, completing your fuckload of revision and homework, and being yelled at. I'm sorry but I want to have a life, one that isn't of a nerd's. >_> I'm not my sis dammit, stop expecting me to be FUCKING LIKE HER. WE'RE TWO DAMN DIFFERENT INDIVIDUALS YOU FUCKFACE. >_>

Besides, what's the point of me explaining anyway? You don't ever ever ever EVER believe what I say. So why bother? If you think I'm loose woman who sleep around, hang out with "gangsters" and "going horribly out of control", THEN SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME DO WHAT I WANT DAMMIT. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT. >_> Why can't I live a day feeling nothing but happy? The only time I really enjoy myself is when I'm not at home, not with my family members, WHEN I DON'T SEE YOU FUCKING FUCKHEADS. I know I was home late, so what? It's not like I didn't rush to get home after I went out with Muffin, Kelton & gang. To fuck, when I rushed home via cab *refer to previous posts*, you assumed that I take the cab home all the time and that I'm wasting your fucking money. LIke wtf? So when I take the cab, it's wrong. But when I don't, it's wrong as well. Then how the FUCK do you want me to come home? Fly? Teleport? >>; Fuckheads.

Also, if you want to yell at me, fine. Don't bring others into the picture. The people that I hang out with aren't losers who don't give a fucking shit about life/studies/work, who play all the time and spend all their fucking cash, and are/acting like gangsters. You don't even know my friends, who are you to tell me what friends I have? You don't know, and you don't even bother finding out. Yet you make such assumptions. How the fucking hell is that fair? It's not. Not one bit. How can you just say that about them? I may not know them long etc, but it PISSES ME OFF that you're saying such shit about them. IT DOES. HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF I SAID THAT YOUR FRIENDS ARE ALL FUCKFACES WHO AREN'T WORTH LIVING ON THIS EARTH? Losers.

And what about those fuckfaces on boards? You know, life would be SO much better if you'd appreciate what the admins had done for the board. EVEN WHEN THE OWNER ISN'T AROUND, WE HELP LIKE FUCK. Don't know something about the ACP? We help. Don't know how to change the layout? We help. Banner requests, etc? We help. And in the end what shit do we get? We get demoded to nothing but members. Even after all that we've done for the board. Fine enough, they're bad enough fuckheads already. Yet now, they are letting shitheads and fuckfaces run the board. AND now instead of respecting us, after so much that we've done, we're being treated like dirt. Like what the fuck.

I don't want to go home. I really wanted to stay out yesterday night, and not go home at all. Who the fuck wants to face fuckheads like them anyway. But I can't. I don't have a choice. I have school today, and I didn't bring my uniform out. No, I must go back for my uniform etc. Was it worth it? NO. Not really. I still think that life would be so much better if I just stayed out last night. Anyone who's willing to take me in for a while? D:

- rant end -

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Happy part now! XD Hey you, stop scrolling. STOP SCROLLING. HAPPY PART STARTS HERE! >_<;;

Gahaha. Went out with Muffin!!! But she was an hour late! Nuuuu, ebil neh neh! ;___; Gahaha, but we had fun. =D Called the indecisive Esther, who later decided to join us! XD I had about seven rounds of DDR straight, and a round of Para Para. It was madness! I had muscle cramps already halfway while DDRing. D:

But I was happy. I passed songs that I couldn't. =D Got a B for all of them, except Nori Nori Nori, which I got an A. o_o To my utter shock. xDD zomgwtfSHOCKK. O__O;; Some of the songs are:

Standard

Afronova
Tsugaru
Nori Nori Nori [Dark + reversed]

Light

Max 300
MaxXUnlimited

Yayyy. XD Gahaha. I played Max 300 and MaxXunlimited about two times each though. Utter madness! @_@ I wanted to try Healing Vision and Holic, but no one would help me. ;___; I didn't want to fail, so I decided not to. ^^;

Later we went for Miydarre's jamming. Keltonnnnn~! First time I saw him dressed so normal. XD The songs they make are awesome. *_* [is in love with them =X] The sound was loud though. LOUDDDDD. I think I'm deaf in one ear. >.O;

Later I'm going to catch Da Vinci Code with Ziqi. I can't wait for Ray le, by then movie bo liao. ;___; SORRIE! ><;

Gahaha. I'm signing off now, I ran out of things to talk about. D: Jya ne~!

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-06T09:04:00.000-07:00

Yes yes, I know it's been aeons since I last wrote a song. My skills have gone rusty. ;_; Anyway, here's Worlds Apart, a song I just wrote.

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Title: Worlds Apart
Written By: Nazhuka Mizhuki
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We are worlds apart
When I'm actually just beside you
There's a barrier
That's separating us
I"m calling your name
Can you hear me?

I want to break this wall
That's separating us
So that I can be with you
Cause all I want is you
And you alone
Don't worry my dear
I'll always be here
Waiting for your return..

Silently, my tears fall
My heart, burning passion
As I stared at your fading figure
I stretched out my hand
But only grasped air
Now, I can only wait..

Will we meet again
If We took our desired paths?
As we walk on
Our paths don't interlock
The beautiful sky..
Can you see it too?

I want to cross over
And meet you everywhere
So that I can be with you
Cause all I want is you
And you alone
Don't worry my dear
I'll always be here
Waiting for your return..

Silently, my tears fall
My heart, burning passion
As I stared at your fading figure
I stretched out my hand
But only grasped air
Now, I can only wait..

Open up my heart
I want to know love again
But, seeing your fading figure
Will you come back to me again?

I will go all out
Just to help you, tend you
So that I can be with you
Cause all I want is you
And you alone
Don't worry my dear
I'll always be here
Waiting for your return..

I want to break this wall
That's separating us
So that I can be with you
Cause all I want is you
And you alone
Don't worry my dear
I'll always be here
Waiting for your return..

Silently, my tears fall
My heart, burning passion
As I stared at your fading figure
I stretched out my hand
But only grasped air
Now, I can only wait..

We are worlds apart
When I'm actually just beside you
There's a barrier
That's separating us
I"m calling your name
Can you hear me?

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~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-04T07:45:00.000-07:00

Gahaha. Here I am, back again with my new blog entry. xD

- Saturday -

Today was alright. GSD group meeting again, nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ;___; Gahaha, but it's been such a long time since I last been to one so I"ll just.. Shut up. T__T Before that I met Cruxification to get my 5 inch platform boots! zomgwtfAWESOME. *_* Gahaha. The group meeting was quite alright, we figured out some dance steps and did the skit, as well as settled some stuff. The Tori our Meer made was just so totally awesome!! Damn you Kudo, I'm going to steal Tori from you.. >)

Gahaha. After that, we went for lunch/dinner [it was at like, 5+.. But we didn't have lunch..? OO;;]. Gahaha, actually wanted Mos Burger, but no space. ;__; Teh ebil. But Tari found seats at KFC, so we went there. Yeahhhh! XDDD We talked cock there until like, 5.45pm. ._.;

I then followed Angela and Boon to Haru. But Boon got lost halfway. zomgwtfSHOCKKK. O_____O;;; We never found her as well. ._.;;;; Oh well, the "shopping trip" with Angela was quite fun. =3 Met Esther and Diana at Haru. xDDD I saw this pants that really caught my eye, but it was too small for me. ;___; Oh well.

I went back to Doubhy Ghout [sp? @_@] again to meet Taku and gang. Gahaha. Had quite some fun, met Edwin. Like wtf, didn't ever EVER expect that. O__O But oh well. xD Talked about some stuff, and it was quite a fine day alright.

Thanks to Takuya who pei me as I waited for a cab to go home. Mou arigatou gozaimasu! =]

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- Sunday -
Sunday was pretty ok, it was mostly all study though. ._.; Went to Takuya's house because he's helping me with my Physics. =D DC Circuits and Electricity. Thanks again! XDDDDDDDDDD

I took AEONSSSSSSSSS to do the questions. MOU GOMEN NASAI!! >__<>_<;;;; Almost died. But like whatever, at least I got to know some information about coloured contacts. =P

Oh yeah! Thanks to Angela who's giving me this black pants that she didn't want so that I can modify it for my streetfest outfit. Thank youuuu! =3

Ray's going for re-service le, nuuuuuu. T___T Ray, JIA YOU!! >) Btw, I read your blog Ray, I think I know who you are referring to. He has my number too, and he's been errrrr. Well. Doing weird stuff over the phone. o___o;

Anyway I'm going to chiong my biology homework now. Jya ne, minna-san! *waves*

[PS: Steven's way of DDRing is weird. o_o;]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-06-02T00:38:00.000-07:00

Gahaha. I'm back peeps!!! I'm backkkkkkkkkk~!! XDDDD

[Wednesday]
Gahahaha. Wed was quite alright, went to stay over at Muffin's place. It was funnnnn. =3 Watched Ouran High Host Club until, like, 2.30am. xDDDD Yeah, went to bed at 3am. ._.; Chatted with people like Fluffy on MSN. Esther and Jiro didnt' come, nuuuuuuuuuu! Oh well, Esther went to stay at Jiro's house, and so Muffin and I are assuming that they're way too busy making out. xDDD Muffin's doggie and kitty and hamster are cuteeeeeeeee!! >__<~~~!!! Oh yeah! WEI LIIII!!! YOU EBIL NEH NEH! YOU GAVE ME YOUR FLUUUUU!!! ;____; Gahaha. Yeah.. I shared drinks with her AND SHE DIDN'T TELL ME THAT SHE'S SICK! T__T Only after I finished it did she say.. Ebil neh neh. T_T

[Thursday]

Oral exam was alright, I was the last though so the waiting was a pain in the ass. Moreover, the lack of sleep, being sick etc got to me and I started to feel sleepy. D: Well I managed to pull through.. I think. Oo; Went out with Taku [finally] and Ray.. Met David as well to get my Lacus costume. Yay! =3 DDRed Taku, gahahaha. Still ok, almost died halfway. ._.; Got a splitting headache halfway! ;___; Gahaha, and I was so hungry waiting for David, I lost al my appetite altogether and felt like throwing up. ._.;

Stayed up to chiong my biology homework.. @_@;; Finished quite fast, luckily.

[Friday]
Nuuuuu!!! No one collected the homework. O___O;;; Nuuu! Gahaha. Anyway today FINALLY showed my parents my report card. It's just so damn fuck lar. They scolded me for not putting in any effort to study at all. Like wtf, they don't let me study, but now it's my fault because apparently "I don't study", etc.. Like what the hell? -____-" And then apparently, after my dad accused me of doing nothing but use the computer, I was like "but now I don't do that anymore, right?" and he was, like, "ok fine, I wish you good luck" etc. Wow, that sounded soooooooooooooooooooooo sincere. >_>; Lots of stuff. Damn fucked up. DAMN fucked up.

Anyway today I won't be going out, staying at home to catch up on some rest. I'm going out tomorrow though, I have my GSD meeting, and I promised Ziru and gang that I'll meet them tomorrow. =X

I'm getting my 5 inch platform boots tomorrow! Yay~ <3>

2006-05-31T02:21:00.000-07:00

Wtf. I'm damn pissed off, so pardon my ranting and/or swearing.

Found this poor rabbit abandoned at my lift lobby. Poor thing. After school I'll go feed it. =] Stupid ebil neh neh owners must dieeee! >(

Today was quite a fine day until SOMEONE came and ruined it. School was still ok, it was pretty fun actually. =X Biology lesson was awesome, a bit too gory for me though. X_x;; English lesson was... *coughbondingsessioncough* D: The career exhibition was quite ok, the one that really interested me was Laselle though. *Wonders if I can enter it*

I rushed through the whole thing, because I'm SUPPOSED to go out today.. Whoever knew that I'd receive this stupid call saying that he can't go out because he's broke, and that he want to go home sleep... So stupid + irritating.. Pang seh me 2 times in a row, think damn fun izzit. Mon I asked him out, when I left home tio scolding.. Then last min receive sms from him saying tha the want go home sleep.. Like wtf, and I already left home at that time.. Then is like, I get scolding for what sia.. Nevermind, fair enough. Maybe after NS he damn tired, whatever. But today is HE ask me out de.. Settled on Monday.. Then now receive this type of call, so damn last minute, like wtf. I rushed home from school.. To receive such info. Seriously, like wtf. Still can ask if Friday I'm free or not, pei him go out cause he hanging out with his friends.. And still can ask me to ask Ray to pei me.. Everytime cannot only ask me ask him, buay pai seh one arh.. Anyway I already said that Ray can't make it today.. >>__

Anyway I went shopping for food to feed the rabbit, who tackled the carrot. O__o;; Freaky animal. But guess cause it was damn hungry - it was there since last night. D: But when I went down again to feed it for the second time, it was no longer there le.. Hopefully it'll lead a nice life with its owner. =D

Ray going for reservice le, nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ;___; No one pei me go arcade play le. T_T Gahahaha. *targets Fluffy + Muffin. Taku? Nahhh. Wait someone last min pang seh me again, say bo cash and want sleep >_>* Gahaha. Nvm, I'll try and master MaxXUnlimited.. Stupid neh neh lar Ray, make me do that hard song. ;___; I shall listen to the mp3 more to understand the song better. OSU! >( But DDR test.. Wtf. O___o;;;;

Stupid neh neh Derrick, don't want pei me go watch X-men 3... Tot you said you don't mind? Gahaha. But so damn last minute, don't blame you. FAIL ON YOUR SONGWRITING, GAHAHAHAHA. *cough**Ahem**cough* =D

I'm going to sleep over at Muffin's place later!! Oooooo, excited. <3 But I have sooooo much time to kill. ;___; Stupid fucking Taku lar, pang seh me somemore, see lar. >_> *is still damn ticked off* >>_|_

Anyway I'm going to sign off now. Jya neeeee!
[wait, there wasn't much swearing, only one. O__o; Don't mind my first statement then. xD]

- peace out -

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-05-30T09:03:00.000-07:00

Gahahaha. Yayyyy!! New layout is up. =D Hope you guys like it. Any comments? Post it! I love reading them anyway. xD Thanks so much to Nic who helped me make it AND providing me with good notes that I shall now take note of. =3

Today Ray overslept. Again. >__<;;; Supposed to wake up at 1pm, but got up at 6+ instead, gahaha. That guy is so cute, but sometimes you just feel like strangling that guy. ^^; *sweatdrops* Gahaha. But it's ok larrr. I'm not mad at him. =D

I'm sleeping over at Muffin's place tomorrow! Yay~ Esther and Jiro's coming too. Hope things don't get too bright! XD But Jiro isn't staying. =( Ebil neh neh. xD; Oh well, tomorrow will be really rushing for me. @_@;;;

*sighs* I'm going to collect my costume from David's seamstress tomorrow.. Do hope everything turns out fine.

Today's tuition was pretty decent, we had our fair share of jokes [as usual]. But halfway my throat hurt like mad. O__O;; Must be because I'm beginning to have a sore throat. ^^; *Sweatdrops*

Oh well, I better hit the sack before I'm late for school tomorrow. @_@;; Nite all!

PS: I want to change my bg music, who's up to hosting an mp3?
[PS: Hairstyling is funnnnnnn =D]

- peace out -

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-05-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

Gahahaha. Wtf, Muffin AND Taku didn't go out with me today. That stupid neh neh. >_> Gahaha, pulled tws along but that idiot was damnnnnnnn late. ;__; So I went on without him. Met Ray and Leong at the arcade. xD Quite fun, though I was mostly at the DDR machine. =X Ray bully me.. Made me do Max Unlimited. Like wtf!! ZomgwtfSHOCKKKK. O___O;; Stupid Holic. I could have passed, if not for the stupid beginning that took away my "life". ;__;

Yeah! This blog is getting a new layout le. =D Thanks to Nic, who made the layout for me. =D Btw, he's also the one who made the Gaara layout. =]

GAHHH. My eyes are dry. Time for me to remove my contacts and stop the fan from blowing right into my eyes. X_x;;;

Naz, signing off. XD

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-05-29T00:16:00.000-07:00

Yeahhhh! It. Is. OVERRRRRR. w00t!! *dances* Gahaha. I'm referring to my Chinese GCE O Levels, in case you don't know. ^^; GAHAHA. I'M HYPER NOW! >_<>

Anyway, I'M GOING OUT WITH MUFFIN LATER! =D Think we'll go shopping or to the arcade. Then again, I'm dead broke. *sweatdrops even more* Also need to go to the seamstress.. *sighs*

Errm. I think that's all. *forgot what I wanted to say*
[I WANT A NEW LAYOUT DAMMIT. ANY TAKERS?]

*REMEMBERS* OH YEAH!!! Ray's blog makes me laugh. ._.; *forgot the rest though* *HUGE sweatdrop*

-peace out-

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-05-27T09:12:00.000-07:00

GAHAHAHAHA. I finally fixed the blog problem. I can now post again! *insert ebil laughter here*

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Haix.. O level mother tongue on Monday.. Die liao larrrrr. I don't have much time to study le.

Just got back report book, I failed 3 subjects.. Failed biology, that was quite a shocker. X_x;; [then again it was a hard paper.. But then again there are people scoring As so I'll just shut up now X_X] The other two subjects are English[but then again, whole level only had 50 passes] and Combined Humanities *Social Studies*[MISREAD QUESTION!!!! ZOMGZZWTFNOOO >__<].

I finally passed my E Maths. YAYYYYYYY!!!! *jumps around* XDDDD After 3 1/2 years of getting F9, all that practice FINALLY paid off. YAYY!! *elated* And many dropped at this paper too. Gahahaha. =D Passed my Combined Science too. Like wtf. I was shocked! XD I couldn't grasp both Chemistry and Physics.. Also managed to pass my POA. I was even more shocked!! D: When Mdm Zaibon said that there were 2 F9s, I thought that I was one of them.. ;__; due to the lack of confidence and self believe bahz..? BUT I PASSED!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!! *insert mad laughter here* AND I passed Chinese. Chinese!!!! YAYYYY!!! GAHAHAHAHA. SEE I CAN PASS. >_<>I am shocked.
*Goes back to normal tone* GAHAHAHA. I DIDN'T NOT STUDY OK! AT LEAST NOW I PASS. DON'T LOOK DOWN ON MUAH CHINESE. MAWHAHAHAHAHA. >D

*cough**AHEM**cough* Sorry I was getting hyper. X_x Let's get back on track.

A huge thanks to those who have helped me with my studies. =] Thanks to Takuya who helped me with my POA, Physics and Chinese. Thanks for helping me not fail those subjects. =D *glomps*

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Anyway, though my ranking and L1R4/R5 was pretty bad, I'm still quite pleased with the results. The mid year was nothing but filled with papers at least a grade harder than the O level standard, and still, my grades showed improvement. Who cares if I'm still not at the top, or the middle at that [acutally I'm in the middle, the lower end though X_x;;]? At least I showed improvement when the majority slipped... I'm already quite pleased.

But here comes the problem.. I can't study.. Individually, cause I have short attention span. Besides, I get distracted quite easily. The computer, the bed, etc... To top it off, I get yelled at all the time at home. How am I supposed to concentrate? So I wanted to go to the library and study. Did I manage to get away from that nagging? Noooo. I got yelled at for going to the library and study, complaining why I can't study at home cause it's so quiet, etc etc... Like wtf. As if? >_> So I need help with the subjects that I'm really bad at. Right? So I got my friends to help me.... I DID tell her that I need to go out and study a lot.. She said it's ok. She said it herself. But did she believe? Nooooo. She claims that I went out to play, not study. Ok fine, if she doesn't believe it's fair enough. But when I do study at home [at night], she scolds me and forces me to go to bed. When my sis last did that, she was praised that she was sooo hardworking. And what about me then? I have complains that I don't study. But it's more like I can't? ARGHHHH. I'm already so scared about my results. I don't such grades for my O Levels! But I can't study.. I'm not allowed to? I told my teacher... She didn't believe me too. X_x;; I'M DOOMED!!! T________T
I'm really scared for my O levels... I don't want such bad grades.. Where the hell will I go? With moderation, my L1R4 is 21. It's so damn bad lar. My O Level Chinese is coming Monday.. It's just 3 more days left! I'm really scared I'll fail..

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Went out with Ray, Fluffy, Keiku and Chris yesterday. RAY OVERSLEPT. ZOMGWTF YOU STUPID NEH NEH. >______<;;; I think the weather influences too much on his sleeping habits. Gahahaha. XDDDD Met Fluffy too.. That weirdo. She bugged me to go out asap.. But she herself came later than me. -_-'' Gahaha. But being out with her is fun. xD Had Macs [FOR HER ONLY! XD] and talked about stuff. Pretty interesting. Well I contacted Muffin for the first time. XD She seems like a really decent person. =] Met Keiku later, who was dressed in jeans!!!! O__O zomgwtfnooooo*shock* *faints* I've.. Never seen her so normal before. T___T But we had fun. xD

Later had to meet neh neh Ray who overslept.. T__T Went to Plaza Sing to buy tickets for Da Vinci Code only to find out that it was sold out. zomgwtfnooooooooooo. T_____T They are ebil! xDDDD And it was so super stupid, Ray and I were actually in the same area, but we didn't spot each other. xDDDD Saw this guy who looked horribly like Koyuki....
Went to the arcade, met Ziru and gang there. DDR mania! XD Well I improved.... I think. X_x;; Gahahaha. It was great fun. Taku and gang joined later.. Taku came in his NS uniform. zomgwtfSHOCKKKK. ><;;; O___O;;;; Gahaha. But I dreaded going home. Ms Teo is going to call my parents... I'm as good as dead. Besides, I don't dare show them my report book.. I actually cried all the way home. ._.;;; Luckily they didn't receive the call... yet.

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ARGHHH. Pardon my super long post.... I need to rant. X_x;;;; DAMMIT LARRR. NA BEI. IF MY MOM DON'T PISS ME OFF FOR A DAY SHE'LL DIE IZZIT. ARGH. Always use my phone sms also.. Then she complain that my bill so high. Got use her brain and think or nott. Not all my messages de leh. Dammit. My calls also not all mine lehhh. DAMMIT. Then dunno how to operate my phone still die die want to use. Stupid bitch. Then dunno how to do something then complain so much, say the phone not good etc. DAMMIT LAR. It PISSES ME OFF. I help save time, use com when I'm eating so that finish le can study also tio scolding. Like wtf. What you wantttt. Dammit. >_>
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Oh yeah, did any of you hear Jery C's Canon in D, the rock version? It's awesome. Listen to it. =] http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/6640/Jerry_C_Cannon_Rock.html

Well I'm signing off now, I'm going to study my chinese. Jya ne.

[Why the hell did I type in Singlish? Oo; .....]

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-04-18T03:58:00.000-07:00

Today was nice And bad. Don't ask. >_<;;;

4 periods free.. w00t! That's like, 2hours 20min free.. I regret not bringing my mobile to school. ;___; T__T

Well, so what exactly did I do during those free periods? I spent the first 2 free periods trying to bond with some of my classmates. I don't know if it worked, but we sure did have fun. XD For the second 2 free periods, I helped to clean up the classroom, and then later talked to Jessica regarding our studies and our families etc. Well hers seem decent enough. ._." As compared to mine. She says that it's because of her condition, but I really doubt so. There's such a HUGE difference.. They go to the beach and play when they were still small, they have family bonding time etc..... I've had NONE of those before. Seriously. Even if I did, it's so rare and unspecial that I don't even remember them. It's pretty sad, eh? And I've also learnt that I shouldn't share anything about my family in real life, I'll start crying ._. *Yes yes I almost did, happy? >_>*

Chance injured his toe.. Ouch!! The bed bang and went inside his toenail, cutting it.. And it was oozing blood all the while.. owwwww. >__<;;; I feel his pain when I'm not even injured. Imagine the torment he has to go through! Argh. The horror. @_@;;

I just realized that Wei Li not only shares the same interests as me [anime], but she also is in the same board, etc! XD So cute. =3

I don't know why, but I'm pretty moody today. As in like, pretty depressed? I don't know... I'm getting weirder and weirder by the second. Anyone willing to drag me back to the same me that I was aeons ago?

PS: PE Tomorrow and it's raining. Field. *thinks* .... Omg. I think I'll take an MC. X_X

I leave you with the translation of Tsubasa's You Are My Love. It's some nice song. Listen to it if you can, ne? XD

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Anime: Tsubasa Chronicle
Song: You Are My Love

Kiss me sweet
I'm sleeping in silence
all alone
in ice and snow

In my dream
I'm calling your name
you are my love..

In your eyes
I search for my memory
lost in vain
so far in the scenery
hold me tight,
and swear again and again
We'll never be apart

If you could touch my feathers softly
I'll give you my love
We set sail in the darkness of the night
out to the sea
to find me there
to find you there
Love me now
if you dare...

Kiss me sweet
I'm sleeping in sorrow
all alone
to see you tomorrow

In my dream
I'm calling your name
You are my love...
My love...

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~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-04-03T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today was our missionary seminar.. Quite a memorable one, I must admit. The lessons learnt.. Are quite a value? Yes, I guess I can say so.

It was fun - I really enjoyed myself. For once, I laughed so much, and enjoyed myself so much.. Despite being alone. As usual. Well, it was pretty fun..

The most excruiating thing was the part where we were supposed to pen down what we are happy and what we aren't about our parents. "What I'm grateful for.." ..... I was sitting there, staring blankly at the paper. What exactly is it that I'm grateful for? With the lack of ideas, I put in "shelter and food, together with clothings".

"What my expectations are.." I sat there, looking at the paper. And then I just broke down and cried. This was.. excruxiating pain. Memories came flooding back - being accused of things I never did, being insulted, being hit, having the need to live with someone who believes that all there is to life is studying.. It was overbearing. It back so much sorrow.. Anger.. pain. Was this all there is to my life? I certainly hope not, but the light that was always there has already started to dim. I wanted to ask of them for so much more..

Understanding me, believing me, having trust in me.. Is it that much to ask? I don't know, but I certainly don't think so in my point of view. Of course, it may be biased, but still...

The part where we share about our friendship, our life in Hai Sing.. It was awesome. I actually had tears in my eyes. Still, it made me realize.. What little happy memories I have, and how much sorrow I have endured. Yes, I have grown.. But, who will be willing to share my sorrow, listen to my porblems? Who will always be by my side, lending me a shoulder to cry on when there's a need to? I want an answer.. Who can do me that favour?

I wrote to some.. Like Yunn Yue, Zi Qi [intend to write to Marcus also =) ]. But out of 6 classes, only 1 gave me.. Thanks Yunn Yue! Your letter made my day. =]

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The English Oral was quite ok, aside from the questions that bombed me. X_X I have to see her again. NOOOO!!! T___T

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Why do we fight so hard to protect others, and how do people get so much power from friendship? It's something I"m still wondering.. It's something I'm still yet to experience. I seriously hope that I will be able to.. I don't want to be all alone all my life.

I leave you with a verse I came up.

Don't be afraid
To show me your tears
You are not all alone
Please don't lose sight of that

Give me your sorrow
And give me your tears
I will comfort you
Until you're okay again

Wonder who will say that to me...

2006-03-31T07:21:00.000-08:00

Haiz.. Today is SO contradicting. I'm confused, upset yet happy. Today's my school's Sports Day..

Firstly, I want to touch on why I'm happy.. I've FINALLY managed to find a matching skirt for my lolita outfit! =] So happy, though it cost a bomb [$50, OMG X_X].... So all I'm left is getting the shoes. Omg, I spent like, $85 in 2 hours. O___O I.. need to shop less. xD; Also happy cause I got the ticket to the DanceWorks competition. Yay! <3

Now, why I'm confused and upset.. Minor shit, but the Sports Day was damn boring.. Now the major thing. My supposedly good friends from sec 1-4 somehow erm, backstabbed me? Not really, but I'm pretty pissed off with their behaviour. They asked around, to see if I have feelings for some guy *of which I don't even know, they refuse to tell me*. I thought that it was just my class, so it's fine.. But it isn't. How can it be fine? People from other classes know about it too. And I was nice to them all these while. I didn't laugh at them together with the others, did I? No.. And the way I treat them didn't change either. During Geography lessons, they will sit the extreme end from where I'm sitting, and they refuse to do projects together with me, even if it's me who has to go to them and ask them if I can join.

So why.. HOW... did this happen? I don't know. I can't comprehend it. I want to.. I want the answer to it, but I'm somewhat afraid that I will not be able to find it. They will change subject, ignore or just walk away, when a topic they consider taboo is brought up. "Go and confront them about it." How? I find it almost impossible. Maybe it's just because I'm too giving? I don't know. I really don't. I'm SO confused.

I find it somewhat unfair. Why do I usually get the bad side of life? Hit by my dad for something I didn't do, etc.. It isn't fair. It really isn't. Maybe it's just me being self-centered and childish, but that's how I really feel..

Who should I trust? Why do I trust? How do I trust? There's so many burning questions within me, that's longing to be answered... Who will answer them? Oh well. At least I got the skirt, right?

2 short verses I wrote:

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Someday I may reach my limit
And forget you, And leave you..
And so before I do
I so want to see the sun rise with you
By your side, n your arms, we'll dulge in our world
Notice me.. Notice me

What do you think in your mind?
What do you keep locked up
In your heart, in your heart?
Tell me why you keep to yourself
I wanna open your heart
And see the world
Always I, Always I knew..

Someday I may reach my limit
And forget you, And leave you..
And so before I do
I so want to see the sun rise with you
By your side, n your arms, we'll dulge in our world
Notice me.. Notice me

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The gusty wind blows
Making the howling of the wind heard
It resembles the cries of sorrow
The drops of rain, like tears falling
Meets the nation once again
It's quite a sight - is Heaven crying for me?

Isn't it wonderful
To have someone to be with?
I so want to see you through
The good times *and* the bad
Accept me.. I no longer want to be alone
My tears fall...

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~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-02-16T02:51:00.000-08:00

Today was fun! =3

Though went to school and kena diao by SOMEONE for just being there..

We were dreadful to see that someone... Was worrying, but still was joking around as per normal. When met that someone was pretty unexpected.. He/She/It clarified stuff with us... Dunno about what the other classmates of mine think, but I think I'd rather let bygones be bygones.. Those who don't want to can IM/PM me about it.. XD;

NEWater trip was... Fun? Oo.. Cannot really describe lehz. Except that Shilton was really keen to take photos. XD

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-02-15T05:13:00.000-08:00

AH!!!! SORRY!!!! >__<> I forgot to thank those people who made yesterday such a wonderful day!!! Charmaine of 4E2 also.. Thanks for your present!! =] Xiang Lin and Jolene also.. Gift for the EXCOs I think. For the EXCOs.. Give you present u still complain? I very heart pain you know.. T__T The thing so ex.. x_x

Thanks also to Yoshimoto Date *Don't want say real name XD* for treating me to dinner!! Must have cost you a bomb. XD Mou gomen nasai, but still mou arigatou gozaimasu anyway! XDDD

To my class.. I LOVE the love letters. They're so awesome! XD Though most talked about either me loving animes or the flowers. -_- DON'T CALL ME FLOWER GIRL. T___T

*Sorry I today a bit gee siao XDDDDDDD*

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-02-15T03:55:00.000-08:00

Valentine's Day was yesterday.. Such an eventful day! We brought presents for one another, and we had a mini party in class! xD So fun man. <3>

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Anyway another eventful thing was the huge present our dear SOMEONE gave us.. Gave him/her/it valentine's day present, rejected it and put it back. He/She/It don't want it fine.. But he/she/it still say what "Don't you know that you cannot bring food to class? You prefect lehz!"... Ok fine.. He/She/It dont' want it's ok.. Then when we didn't answer cause we were flipping through our textbooks to see where that we stopped, that SOMEONE got pissed off and yelled at us. Called us slow... What the bloody fuck.. No logic right?

So he/she/it threw his/her/its marker... Rolled to this guy's desk. who's damn poor thing you know.. Yelled at because he didn't pick it up and return to that big shot.. Not reasonable, ne? So he/she/it started scolding the class.. Called us slow, deaf, dumb, dead, unfeeling, emotionless, expressionless, selfish, individualists, no class unity.. You get the idea. It's insulting... You imagine someone tells you [you suck - you don't belong here, cause you don't care for others enough]... Are you saying that you love it? I don't think so.. So I don't believe that we can be called "sensitive" cause we weren't happy. Everyone gets agitated.. So why can't we? We're humans too right? Just because we younger doesn't mean that we must be deprived of this particular emotion because you said we can't. Discrimination? Yes. Definately.

Then that SOMEONE went round the whole class.. Down each row, calling the names of the people he/she/it knows. Then went, like, [those that I don't know, it's because you don't communicate with me]. Like really.. What the bloody hell... When we move our eyebrows, we get accused of talking in class and we get scoldings.. How do you expect us to talk? And please... We don't have to know personal stuff. I seriously see no point in knowing it. How many times you go out with your bf... Seriously larz, how often do people say that out? It's just like asking a married guy [how many times do you have sex with your wife? =D Must share! We're friends!] that kinda stuff. You get my drift? It's personal stuff... If normal people don't share, why must we? Cause we cannot have our own privacy? I don't see any god damn logic in this..I was pissed off! Had tears in my eyes, but that's besides the point. He/She/It continued scolding.. Our class has an idiot, or so the Great One says. As quoted, "I want to know who that IDIOT is who said that I call you stupid. I can sue you you know that?!"

*AHEM* ANYWAY... DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE VEY HARD TO COMPROMISE WITH?! Can you PLEASE make up your fucking mind, FINALISE AND STICK WITH IT, and let us know what type of response you want so that we can please you more easily? We cannot read your mind and know what you want.. Even if you paid us a million dollars to do that. We'd gladly accept your money, but actually doing it is another thing altogether. Do not expect us to do the impossible. Unless you can? Then do, and prove us wrong, that you can do what you cannot do. And do not assume things, just because you are not happy with it.. Can't you bloody ask around first? Ask will die arh? Lose face? Sensitive ones are not us.. It's you. So STFU KTHXB.

Anyway.. That big shot very ebil you know.. Didn't accept our gift, but accepted other class' gift. Like wtf manz. Was, like, [awww, so sweet of you all! Thanks =3] or something like that. Can't really remember. AND HE/SHE/IT JOKED AROUND WITH THEM. Even better.. Insulted E6 directly in other class... No joke man. SO insulting.. Being accused of things we didn't do also. Imagine if we do that to you.. Will you like it? I don't think so.. And you may call us petty if you want, but someone older than us being even MORE petty than us is even worse..

To summarize it all, we were scolded because we were quiet.

Is it fair? You be the judge.

~ Nazhuka Mizhuki ~

2006-01-08T00:34:00.000-08:00

Yosh~! In 2006, I'll be starting my cosplay projects!! First up would be Commander Lacus! Well, for the performance, I've written a song. Enjoy!!!

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Title: Prayer

What lies in a world without wars?
We can only imagine
it's everyone's fantasy
Even when we smile fondly as we dream
people are still killed by the thousands
Look! - that's the light from nuclear weapons exploding..
And yet again, despair overwhelms the nations..

In the current era with a disturbed peace
The beautiful silence is shattered by shrieks
Historical buildings curmble to the ground
While conflicts and tensions never cease
Let this prayer sooth the earth
And bring unity in all
For a united, peaceful universe

Where can we find safety in war?
We can only wish for it -
it's in everyone's prayers
Even as we wish for a place like that
People are still fighting to survive
Listen! - That's the sound of bombs exploding nearby..
And yet again, sadness overwhelms the nation

In the current era with a disturbed peace
The beautiful silence is shattered by shrieks
Historical buildings curmble to the ground
While conflicts and tensions never cease
Let this prayer sooth the earth
And bring unity in all
For a united, peaceful universe

When will we accept everyone for who they are?
Where can we escape this horror?
It's a question with no answer
Wars are prolonged for no good reason
A prayer is said... Will it be ignored?
Let us unite once again
Our prayers will be answered one day..

Let this silent prayer soothe the earth
And bring unity to all
For a united, peaceful universe

2005-10-30T01:01:00.000-08:00

Lol, another update after such a long time.

Well I just wrote a song, I got the inspiration off the song "Ohayo" from Hunter x Hunter. I still need a title to this song, if you have any ideas leave me a message, eh? Thankies!! ^_^

The quiet of our surroundings is shattered
By our raised voices, yelling at one another
Our squabble over something petty
It's funny, how we argue like enemies
And give each other the cold shoulder for days

But as we quarrelled
Memories of the past are triggered
And I remember the good and bad times we shared..
HEY!! Our friendship may be rocky, but..

Even though we argued so bad
I still want to wake up
Saying "GOOD MORNING!!" to you cheerfully
And act as if all's fine
Even though I know it won't happen
Still, foolishly, stubbornly
I dream of that day happening

In the heated arguement that we're engrossed in
We'd start swearing at each other, tossing stuff at each corner
Adding a pinch of violence to our petty quarrel
It's funny, how we turn our backs on each other
And yet we grin foolishly at our actions

But as we quarrelled
Memories of the past are triggered
And I remember the good and bad times we shared..
HEY!! Our friendship may be rocky, but..

Even though we argued so bad
I still want to wake up
Saying "GOOD MORNING!!" to you cheerfully
And act as if all's fine
Even though I know it won't happen
Still, foolishly, stubbornly
I dream of that day happening

We'd keep checking for messages from the other
In hopes of getting an apology e-mail
Our arguement over something like this
It's funny, how we strongly refuse to give in
And still wonder if we did the right thing

But as we quarrelled
Memories of the past are triggered
And I remember the good and bad times we shared..
HEY!! Our friendship may be rocky, but..

Even though we argued so bad
I still want to wake up
Saying "GOOD MORNING!!" to you cheerfully
And act as if all's fine
Even though I know it won't happen
Still, foolishly, stubbornly
I dream of that day happening

But as we quarrelled
Memories of the past are triggered
And I remember the good and bad times we shared..
HEY!! Our friendship may be rocky, but..

Even though we argued so bad
I still want to wake upSaying "GOOD MORNING!!" to you cheerfully
And act as if all's fine
Even though I know it won't happen
Still, foolishly, stubbornly
I dream of that day happening

Even though we argued so bad
I still want to wake up
Saying "GOOD MORNING!!" to you cheerfully
And act as if all's fine
Even though I know it won't happen
Still, foolishly, stubbornly
I dream of that day happening

Even though we argued so bad
I still want to wake up
Saying "GOOD MORNING!!" to you cheerfully
And act as if all's fine
Even though I know it won't happen
Still, foolishly, stubbornly
I dream of that day happening

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OH!!! The background music you're hearing is "Finding Your Way" from FFVIII.

An important thing... 「 」 A memory.

An important thing... 「」 A memory.